Dazzlar13
19-12-12, 10:33
Hi
I have suffered from Anxiety for as long as I remember.
However its always been controllable until a while back (probably around 6 years ago)
I lost my job and couldn't find work for around 4 months.
During this time I was staying up late and getting up late and subsequently messed up my sleep pattern.
Anyway I fond a temporary job that required me to be up at 7:00.
I couldn't sleep obviously. Eventually after months of getting around 3 hours sleep a day I discovered pot helped me to sleep....
After a while I found another job and realised I have an anxiety disorder and was prescribed Citalopram.
I still couldn't stop relying on the pot to sleep for a while but I eventually stopped.
Around a year later I felt better and came of Citalopram. Everything was good for a while and then suddenly the Insomnia came back with a vengeance.
After around a week I gave up and started with the pot and Citalopram again.
Its all Psychological I know this myself but I cant stop obsessing over sleep :(
This lasted about 2 years and I got p'eed off with the situation.
Went to see the doc explained and she prescribed me Mirtazapine.
Problem is this makes my daytime anxiety worse which makes it even harder to stop with this routine.
I know the pot is sabotaging things even if it is a small amount.
Deep down I also know its the Mirt that is helping me sleep..
Thing is I don't want to be on anything at all for sleep, I would like to just sleep like a normal person.
The sleep clinic near me wont see me as they say its a CBT issue and the Mental health department say is a sleep clinic issue.
I am due to start CBT as I've managed to swing it with them,I just basically admitted I have an Anxiety problem truthfully this time...
I am absolutely terrified of stopping everything as I'm petrified I'll not sleep and it'll end up costing me my job and screwing my career plans up.
I really don't fancy being out of work I love working.
I had a bout recently and kind of thought to myself "you know what I'm going to go in work and go to the gym and not let this thing ruin my day" and I did feel better.
But I'm not sure how long this attitude would last if I wasn't sleeping very well for days on end.
Has anyone else been through anything similar?
I'm on holiday in March so I'm hoping once I see first hand what's helping me to sleep it should be one substance down.
I absolutely 100% would be off AD's if it wasn't for the sleep.
Advice welcome
Incredibly frustrated
Daz
I have suffered from Anxiety for as long as I remember.
However its always been controllable until a while back (probably around 6 years ago)
I lost my job and couldn't find work for around 4 months.
During this time I was staying up late and getting up late and subsequently messed up my sleep pattern.
Anyway I fond a temporary job that required me to be up at 7:00.
I couldn't sleep obviously. Eventually after months of getting around 3 hours sleep a day I discovered pot helped me to sleep....
After a while I found another job and realised I have an anxiety disorder and was prescribed Citalopram.
I still couldn't stop relying on the pot to sleep for a while but I eventually stopped.
Around a year later I felt better and came of Citalopram. Everything was good for a while and then suddenly the Insomnia came back with a vengeance.
After around a week I gave up and started with the pot and Citalopram again.
Its all Psychological I know this myself but I cant stop obsessing over sleep :(
This lasted about 2 years and I got p'eed off with the situation.
Went to see the doc explained and she prescribed me Mirtazapine.
Problem is this makes my daytime anxiety worse which makes it even harder to stop with this routine.
I know the pot is sabotaging things even if it is a small amount.
Deep down I also know its the Mirt that is helping me sleep..
Thing is I don't want to be on anything at all for sleep, I would like to just sleep like a normal person.
The sleep clinic near me wont see me as they say its a CBT issue and the Mental health department say is a sleep clinic issue.
I am due to start CBT as I've managed to swing it with them,I just basically admitted I have an Anxiety problem truthfully this time...
I am absolutely terrified of stopping everything as I'm petrified I'll not sleep and it'll end up costing me my job and screwing my career plans up.
I really don't fancy being out of work I love working.
I had a bout recently and kind of thought to myself "you know what I'm going to go in work and go to the gym and not let this thing ruin my day" and I did feel better.
But I'm not sure how long this attitude would last if I wasn't sleeping very well for days on end.
Has anyone else been through anything similar?
I'm on holiday in March so I'm hoping once I see first hand what's helping me to sleep it should be one substance down.
I absolutely 100% would be off AD's if it wasn't for the sleep.
Advice welcome
Incredibly frustrated
Daz