Ziggy455
19-12-12, 12:42
I just don't understand anything anymore. Countless tests provide answers that I just don't follow. What stops us being able to accept reality as it is? I've had many tests and countless BP monitors and I thought I was starting to beat this anxiety.
With the stress of christmas and deadlines, I've slipped back into Anxiety worse than ever before. And now I am receiving emails from countless clone accounts emailing me certain reports and case studies. It's as if somebody wants me to keep suffering. :weep:
I block the emails but I just get more in the form of 'Saw your video, looks cool.' and I open it and reports of young people suffering strokes blare on my screen. Somebody is trying to make my life worse and I can't seem to get rid of the emails. I'm in the process of changing my email due to this harassment.
But that doesn't stop the words from sinking in. I'm so terrified of locked-in syndrome or a stroke. I can't beat this fear. And as I keep getting emails of kids my age suffering strokes, I'm going mental with anxiety.
I feel like there is no hope.
With the stress of christmas and deadlines, I've slipped back into Anxiety worse than ever before. And now I am receiving emails from countless clone accounts emailing me certain reports and case studies. It's as if somebody wants me to keep suffering. :weep:
I block the emails but I just get more in the form of 'Saw your video, looks cool.' and I open it and reports of young people suffering strokes blare on my screen. Somebody is trying to make my life worse and I can't seem to get rid of the emails. I'm in the process of changing my email due to this harassment.
But that doesn't stop the words from sinking in. I'm so terrified of locked-in syndrome or a stroke. I can't beat this fear. And as I keep getting emails of kids my age suffering strokes, I'm going mental with anxiety.
I feel like there is no hope.