coldwater
19-12-12, 17:39
Hi
I've had Generalized anxiety disorder and panic disorder for years however over the past 5 months or so i've developed OCD and ntrusive thoughts about some terrible things which I just cannot shift. I've become an alcoholic and i know im dying. my routine is i wake up, drink, vomit, drink, vomit blood, drink and drink until i knock myself out. I could cope with it before but since i've developed these intrusive thoughts, (they are typical from what i've seen things like would i harm this person/myself, kill myself, questioning sexuality, intrusive images, persistent questioning about what/who/I am.) my body has started to collapse and i'm sure that i'm dying. ONe of the hardest things is trying to sleep. It is impossible, i dont sleep, i pass out for a few hours and wake up again. I used to be frightened of killing myself but I would honestly welcome it now.
Anybody been this low before and overcome? I 100% cannot see myself getting through this. Im just to much of a coward to kill myself.
I've had Generalized anxiety disorder and panic disorder for years however over the past 5 months or so i've developed OCD and ntrusive thoughts about some terrible things which I just cannot shift. I've become an alcoholic and i know im dying. my routine is i wake up, drink, vomit, drink, vomit blood, drink and drink until i knock myself out. I could cope with it before but since i've developed these intrusive thoughts, (they are typical from what i've seen things like would i harm this person/myself, kill myself, questioning sexuality, intrusive images, persistent questioning about what/who/I am.) my body has started to collapse and i'm sure that i'm dying. ONe of the hardest things is trying to sleep. It is impossible, i dont sleep, i pass out for a few hours and wake up again. I used to be frightened of killing myself but I would honestly welcome it now.
Anybody been this low before and overcome? I 100% cannot see myself getting through this. Im just to much of a coward to kill myself.