sick of this rut!!!!!

[swgrl09]

feeling so blah, irritable, awful. is it just the holidays or more? don't wanna go to my counselor's in an hour ... it's an hour drive. i want to go home and be alone, fiance is irritating me though. everything/everyone is irritating me.

[bertone902]

u tried sleeping you may be just tired :)

[swgrl09]

I don't sleep well again ... need diazepam to sleep. Met with my counselor today, who suggested calling my GP to discuss a higher dose of my lexapro ... I've been on 10 mg and suggested 20

[swgrl09]

freaking out a bit ... don't want to go to my internship, but i have next week off so feel too guilty to stay home. freaking out a lot actually.

haven't heard from my doctor yet about an increase, i left her a message last night with the receptionist. granted its only 9 AM here.

just really anxious, don't want to leave the house, know i have to.

[Annie0904]

sending hugs :hugs::hugs: Wish I could do more xx

[swgrl09]

also anxious about going up to my in-laws this weekend and not being home ... we are going tomorrow right when i get home from internship, so no down time to catch my breath

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thanks annie, you have done a lot actually by being there :hugs:

[serendipity_x]

don't worry, another week till its all over.