StrawberryVanilla100
26-12-12, 16:25
Hi, I'm new here and I just need help. I was put on a mental center by mistake like three months ago. And there instead of helping people they make them worse. Most of the nurses were ignorant and mean. It was a very bad place to be at..I really don't wish anybody to end up in a place like that. I ended in there because I was stupid enough to tell my doctor I thought about killing myself almost everyday, It wasn't true I was just so depressed and many shitt was going on in my life and I was just feeling so down that I really didn't knew what I was saying. But I never expected the doctor to make such a big deal out of it and even call an ambulance and polices to come get me. I mean if I had known I would never have said anything like that. I stayed in a tiny room in a hospital for almost 6 hours with the doors locked like I was a criminal or something. Than they took me to the mental center were I had no other choice but go. I knew I was just depressed not suicidal, I also didn't take any drugs or anything. My 7 days in there were miserable, the antibiotics for depression they gave me were called celexa and they also gave me two other anibiotics for an infection I had called bacterial vaginosis. I took antibiotics like three times a day. I wasn't eating enough the anibiotics they gave me made me not want to eat. I lost 6 pounds in there, I was weak, sick, and I didn't want any more antibiotics. The last ones they gave me there were 5 antibiotics before I came that almost killed me I mean I started feeling dizzy in the support group and I almost faithed..two girls took me out of there to the other room were it was so cold cause the nurses wouldn't let me go lay down in the bed. I felt really sick and weak. The nurses and doctor just acted like I was the problem. But no I went there completely normal healthy and I came back sick weak and that night I almost died when I came home my mom almost took me to the hospital but I was scared that I would end back there again. I never knew such a horrible place existed were they treat people like trash instead of human beings. I thought they were going to help me not that I needed it that much. I blame myself for being so stupid and telling my problems to a doctor. After I came here I notice that my bacterial vaginosis hadn't gone away so I asked a nurse over the phone that also worked in that mental place she said to take the other antibiotics my family doctor had told me to take. I had already taken them but I took more for another 7 days because I wanted it to go away. Than it didn't so I went to another doctor not my family doctor cause I was embarrassed to go back there after all the show I had made. She said now I had a yeast infection so I told her if I could take cream instead because I was just so tired of antibiotics my body didn't want more. I also told a assistant nurse about how I had those attacks at night after taken those antibiotics he either didn't heard me or forgot afterwards. Here is what I have been experience even now after I no longer take them. It happens at night when I'm laying down most of the time. My heart starts racing, my hands feel numb weak. I feel confused. I have shortens of breath. I almost feel like something heavy is pressing me and I get breath well. my body feels different like I have no control of what is happening to me. I mean I never felt this way before only after I took those antibiotics. I get so scared when it happens I'm scared I might go crazy or something bad might happen to me. Has anybody in here have experience something like this? What should I do?