harrys mummy
30-12-12, 15:38
Hi everyone, I hope you all enjoyed christmas, I wish I had of more as it was my 10mth old sons first.
Long story I hope you can take the time to have a read,
I've suffered with anxiety mostly health related as long as I can remember but also a massive fear of going insane, losing my mind and everything falling round around me! I had a really awful time about 11 years ago I don't know what started it or why it happened but I was in an awful place for mths didn't want to be alone but didn't want to be with people I think your probably know the one! I eventually got help and have been on paroxitine ever since.
I some how got on with my life and was doing well still having panic attacks and anxiety but managing until around 4 years ago I came off all contriception and started to suffer terribly with PMT, 2 weeks before a period I was terrible crying my eyes out going insane, I knew what it was but my brain wouldn't accept it! Back on the pill and propanolo it settled down.
Since then I got married 3 years ago and have a beautiful baby, but I must point out my husband looks after our son I could never be a full time mum.
Ever since the PMT issues I have these odd times when its so hard to explain but my brain remembers all the horrid things I have put to the back of my mind, it makes me feel so low, I can't explain how I feel really, odd, so scarred its goning to come back full blow one day, I want to cry my eyes out!
I also have issues with my mum, we've never been close and she was awful when I was at my worst all those years ago, she has suffered with panic herself, quite recently and wanted to lean on me but I can't let her it brings back to meny memories for me! She gets on my nerves but my baby loves her so can't avoid it!!
Thanks for listening xx
Long story I hope you can take the time to have a read,
I've suffered with anxiety mostly health related as long as I can remember but also a massive fear of going insane, losing my mind and everything falling round around me! I had a really awful time about 11 years ago I don't know what started it or why it happened but I was in an awful place for mths didn't want to be alone but didn't want to be with people I think your probably know the one! I eventually got help and have been on paroxitine ever since.
I some how got on with my life and was doing well still having panic attacks and anxiety but managing until around 4 years ago I came off all contriception and started to suffer terribly with PMT, 2 weeks before a period I was terrible crying my eyes out going insane, I knew what it was but my brain wouldn't accept it! Back on the pill and propanolo it settled down.
Since then I got married 3 years ago and have a beautiful baby, but I must point out my husband looks after our son I could never be a full time mum.
Ever since the PMT issues I have these odd times when its so hard to explain but my brain remembers all the horrid things I have put to the back of my mind, it makes me feel so low, I can't explain how I feel really, odd, so scarred its goning to come back full blow one day, I want to cry my eyes out!
I also have issues with my mum, we've never been close and she was awful when I was at my worst all those years ago, she has suffered with panic herself, quite recently and wanted to lean on me but I can't let her it brings back to meny memories for me! She gets on my nerves but my baby loves her so can't avoid it!!
Thanks for listening xx