justina
31-12-12, 13:17
This drives me insane!!!
The last months have been my worst time ever with HA.
I have been totally obsessing with lymphoma, gynaecological cancers, liver cancer, and so on.
I also worry myself sick over my children. My 3-year-old has been blinking and touching his eyes for more than a month now. I have been worrying about blurred vision = brain tumour symptom. Now he has had a runny nose, but no cold, no other symptoms, for three weeks. I try to be rational and say to myself it is probably an allergy, both eyes and nose, and I will take him to the doctor for allergy tests. But what if it actually is a tumour? A sinus or a nasal tumour that make his eyes irritated too? And to make me freak out totally, he said this morning that his vision is blurry.
I mentioned it to my husband who also has noticed the nose and eye problems, my husband did not seem extremely worried but a little bit, yes. Which makes me worry even more. But I don't want to talk anymore about it, don't want to make him worried because if he worries I will have a nervous break down.
As for me, this morning I woke up and felt itchy, as I do every day since June. I started googling lymphoma symptoms and so on, felt worse than ever.
Tried to calm down.
And then my little one said this thing about his eyes and I forgot my lymphoma.
I also worry about my biggest child, she complains about her stomach and I keep examining her in her sleep (don't want her to notice my anxiety) trying to feel if her spleen or liver are enlarged.
I am so worried. Do you think what my 3-year old has can be a simple allergy?
I will go crazy if I can't calm down. I jump from worry to worry in like 10 minutes.
Tonight we will have guests so I really need to focus on other things now. But it's not easy :-(
I have tried CBT but didn't finish the therapy
The last months have been my worst time ever with HA.
I have been totally obsessing with lymphoma, gynaecological cancers, liver cancer, and so on.
I also worry myself sick over my children. My 3-year-old has been blinking and touching his eyes for more than a month now. I have been worrying about blurred vision = brain tumour symptom. Now he has had a runny nose, but no cold, no other symptoms, for three weeks. I try to be rational and say to myself it is probably an allergy, both eyes and nose, and I will take him to the doctor for allergy tests. But what if it actually is a tumour? A sinus or a nasal tumour that make his eyes irritated too? And to make me freak out totally, he said this morning that his vision is blurry.
I mentioned it to my husband who also has noticed the nose and eye problems, my husband did not seem extremely worried but a little bit, yes. Which makes me worry even more. But I don't want to talk anymore about it, don't want to make him worried because if he worries I will have a nervous break down.
As for me, this morning I woke up and felt itchy, as I do every day since June. I started googling lymphoma symptoms and so on, felt worse than ever.
Tried to calm down.
And then my little one said this thing about his eyes and I forgot my lymphoma.
I also worry about my biggest child, she complains about her stomach and I keep examining her in her sleep (don't want her to notice my anxiety) trying to feel if her spleen or liver are enlarged.
I am so worried. Do you think what my 3-year old has can be a simple allergy?
I will go crazy if I can't calm down. I jump from worry to worry in like 10 minutes.
Tonight we will have guests so I really need to focus on other things now. But it's not easy :-(
I have tried CBT but didn't finish the therapy