swgrl09
01-01-13, 01:00
I was looking forward to a quiet night in by myself tonight ... then started thinking about my family situation and called my fiance. He didn't have time to talk because he is going out for New Years in New Orleans with his work buddies he is on the trip with. I just broke down and felt so alone right now. I feel like such a spaz for flipping the switch like that.
My sisters are together tonight and I couldn't bring myself to go see them because I am still so upset at them. My dad didn't even call to say Happy New Year. He is with his new girlfriend anyway. I feel so isolated from my family and although my fiance is so supportive and tries, he just doesn't understand as his family has not hurt him like this.
I feel badly being a wishy wash and complaining so much about this. I was actually feeling pretty good today until I just was home alone tonight and thinking about family and past new years with them.
It's weird feeling like I am grieving the loss of people who are still alive.
Wish my mom was here to help. Felt like she was the only one who really put my feelings first in the family.
Sorry for being mopey.
My sisters are together tonight and I couldn't bring myself to go see them because I am still so upset at them. My dad didn't even call to say Happy New Year. He is with his new girlfriend anyway. I feel so isolated from my family and although my fiance is so supportive and tries, he just doesn't understand as his family has not hurt him like this.
I feel badly being a wishy wash and complaining so much about this. I was actually feeling pretty good today until I just was home alone tonight and thinking about family and past new years with them.
It's weird feeling like I am grieving the loss of people who are still alive.
Wish my mom was here to help. Felt like she was the only one who really put my feelings first in the family.
Sorry for being mopey.