DreamsInSpace2
01-01-13, 14:53
Not sure if I have posted about this here before but I do feel that there is some underlying cause for the fatigue I feel and I just don't know what to do. I have delayed going to the doctors because of my fear of illness ( I am Emetophobic) and I am worried this won't be fixable. It's really bringing me down so I am just really typing out to get it off of my chest. 9 months ago I begun to develop symptoms when tired & a sensitivity to heat. I used to love the sun & would spend weeks in it on holiday with my family but suddenly I'd feel awful in the sun, tired, feel sick etc. which is hard when you have a phobia and I'd fear it being sunny. I was in distress on the few days it was sunny here in England in the summer. The tiredness starting to feel worse.. I feel sick if I get too tired, like so awful I have to take anti-emetic and with a phobia this is horrific, I also sweat profoundly.. literally and become so over exhausted. I put up with it though thinking no one would believe me and I kept asking people so many questions about fatigue trying to find answers myself but never found reassurance this'd get better & was normal. I used to be able to stay up till 3am in the morning.. (I am 20 years old) and just feel normal tiredness.. now I fear losing sleep due to how it makes me feel. Before we moved 6 months ago I was starting to go to bed at half 8 i culdnt stay up literally couldnt.. and even when i got enough sleep id feel tired next day and horrible and spend the day in bed. I have out of breath days.. that's what I call them where i feel dizzy etc. for no reason I went to a doctor about this part.. and he gave me asthma inhaler so I begun to try exercise but I'd just feel exhausted.. I am 20 slim so it feels like i shouldn't get the way I do when I exercise. When I moved in June I went through a lot of stress & the fatigue hit me even harder. I begun waking up 2-3 times a night, struggling with the heat in the house, sweating so much and having to soak a towel in the night to try sleep. Even when I was getting enough sleep I'd wake up feeling awful from tiredness with all symptoms I said above. I literally crashed for a few weeks too. I lay in bed as still as possible.. I was so exhausted, felt sick, and would sweat & sweat. I didn't do anything those few weeks.. felt i couldn't function & i just cried thinking bout how i may never go out again, how i'd cope if i had a baby.. never mind with the phobia i have but also the fact i couldn't get up in the night with a baby feeling as i do... or how would i have a job. It just hit me out the blue all of this.. I have been to doctors and had 5 blood tests.. all vitamin levels etc. tested, thyroid.. diabetic test.. they tested due to other things i was complaining bout.. i have been weeing in the night and stinging for a while now too and i mentioned tiredness so they tested for diabetes. all came back normal, i have only mentioned tiredness twice to doctors as i kept praying and hoping it'd pass & that it was all in my head but I know its not. I have been wanting to go to doctors for weeks but due to all the news etc. and my fear of illness & germs I haven't felt able to as I am so afraid but I know I need to see someone bout this. The last 2 weeks it felt like it might be finally improving but then with it being New Year last night tried to stay awake.. and it has hit me hard. I felt so awful last night.. had huge panic attacks as I was sweating etc. and although I have had a full nights sleep still feel fatigued :( i pray this is able to be fixed.. so worried in case i'll never be able to stay awake again & will have to put up with this fatigue some days. It's scaring me so so much.. i hate it so much. Hoping so much its fixable and i'll be okay :( its so hard.. i dunno whats happening with me but i do feel there is an underlying cause now.. just needed someone to talk to bout this.. it's so hard feeling as I do when fatigued and experiencing fatigue with the phobia I have.. really hoping I'll be fine *sigh*