nessynessa
01-01-13, 20:43
Hi,
Never done anything like this before but I thought I'd give it a try and see if anything can help me.
I'm a 30 year old single parent to 3 boys. I have been suffering from anxiety, social phobias and depression for as long as I can remember. This has caused me to not really ever behave like a normal person! So suffice to say, I have made some huge mistakes in life and never really amounted to anything, which in turn feeds my depression/anxiety and the cycle continues...
Currently at an all time low. I attempted a relationship with somebody who I really do love, but as soon as he got close enough to see how much inner turmoil i suffer, he backed away. Obviously this hurts like hell but it's not the first time it's happened.
I know I'll just deal with it and get on, but I really can't stand the pain I feel inside all the time. I've had 30 years of it and I've had enough. I love my children so much and if it wasn't for them, I'd see no point in me really.
Anyway, I am currently on 75mg of venlafaxine which seems to do nothing other than give me the worst withdrawl if I miss taking them..I have some diazepam left from when it was previously prescribed to me during a bad episode. It's only 2mg and I'm thinking I should just take it for a week just to numb the pain so I can get on and do what I need to do without feeling quite so crippled inside.
Any advice would be much appreciated! Thanks in advance.
p.s I have never actually uttered anything so depressing in my life, but I figure this is the place to actually do that!:unsure:
Never done anything like this before but I thought I'd give it a try and see if anything can help me.
I'm a 30 year old single parent to 3 boys. I have been suffering from anxiety, social phobias and depression for as long as I can remember. This has caused me to not really ever behave like a normal person! So suffice to say, I have made some huge mistakes in life and never really amounted to anything, which in turn feeds my depression/anxiety and the cycle continues...
Currently at an all time low. I attempted a relationship with somebody who I really do love, but as soon as he got close enough to see how much inner turmoil i suffer, he backed away. Obviously this hurts like hell but it's not the first time it's happened.
I know I'll just deal with it and get on, but I really can't stand the pain I feel inside all the time. I've had 30 years of it and I've had enough. I love my children so much and if it wasn't for them, I'd see no point in me really.
Anyway, I am currently on 75mg of venlafaxine which seems to do nothing other than give me the worst withdrawl if I miss taking them..I have some diazepam left from when it was previously prescribed to me during a bad episode. It's only 2mg and I'm thinking I should just take it for a week just to numb the pain so I can get on and do what I need to do without feeling quite so crippled inside.
Any advice would be much appreciated! Thanks in advance.
p.s I have never actually uttered anything so depressing in my life, but I figure this is the place to actually do that!:unsure: