Hitting my head against a brick wall

[brenda]

Anybody feel like they are not getting anywhere on the road to recovery?
I feel like I am hitting my head against a brick wall.

i started going out and doing more and even managed a holiday even though it was stressful and I was ill and had to stay 2 extra days.
Other things in my life have improved such as selling my art. I have commissions for several paintings but all this is spoilt by my anxiety.

Since I got back I have had a lot of headaches.
I joined a telephone recovery group and started relaxation and going out for walks on my own. I'm also going to be going to a group for anxiety sufferers.

Since then I have hurt my back so I cant do much at all and also my father is ill and has been in hospital.

I feel like something is trying to stop me getting better. IF it is not the anxiety stopping me it is my body

I so want to be able to go out and enjoy life without all the anxiety.
My hubby wants to go and see his mum as she is ill and wants me to go with him as he has health problems and dooesnt want to go on his own, but I am so worried that I will be ill while I am away as I keep getting headaches again.

I've had headaches all my life and have been checked by docs etc. No cause found but I am thinking that it is the headaches and migraines that might have contributed to my agoraphobia cause I never know when I migraine will start and I have it so bad that I have to take painkillers and lay down usually for a day or so to recover.

I'm wondering if cause I am trying to get over the anxiety that my mind is giving me other problems.

Just wanted to rant a bit. Sitting here feeling a bit sorry for myself.
Thanks for listening

Hugs
Pam x

[scoobygirl2005]

Hi.

Sorry to hear you are feeling like this. Its probably just a little blip and you'll be back on your feet in no time. Just keep being positive and don't give up. :D

Scooby2005
x x

[polly daydream]

Hi Pam, you will get there in the end sweety, think positive and don't give up, as Scooby has said it is just a blip.

Take care,

Polly x

[heths]

Hi,

I'm sorry to hear you're feeling like this. I've felt like this before too.

I know it's hard at times, especially when we have things to deal with aswell as the anxiety. Try looking at what you have achieved, such as going out more and even though your holiday was stressful you managed a holiday.

Take Care,

Heather x

[Southern_Belle]

Hi Brenda,

Seems to me like you have alot on your plate right now and this could be contributing to your headaches/migraines. I get them myself so I know, they are just awful. You need to try some relaxtion techniques as you are under alot of stress right now, it will help. Try not to be so hard on yourself of what you can't do but what you have done and can do.

Bel

"Our thoughts are our reality"

[missacorah]

We all have these horrible periods where it really does seem like someone or something is holding us back. You are doing well as you are here and coping with what sounds like your fair share of problems at the mo.

Stay strong!

[brenda]

THank you all for your encouragement.
I am doing relaxation and have my telephone support group tonight so will tell tham how I feel too.

Just needed to have a rant really :-)

THanks for listening

Pam x

[Piglet]

Is it the Nopanic telephone recovery group mate??

I finished my course with them in June and still keep in touch with a couple of people even now. It was a great help in goal setting and lovely to hear real voices lol!!! It gave me a good boost and was well worth it!

Love Piglet x

"Supposing a tree fell down, Pooh, when we were underneath it?" said Piglet.
"Supposing it didn't," said Pooh after careful thought.

[brenda]

Yes it is and it is nice to be able to chat to other people the same as me.
I have started relaxation since joining the group
Thats when I remember to do it :-)

I am doing the goal setting but am not actually achieving much cause of the physical problems

Oh well hope it will soon get better

Ta
Pam