purplepie
03-01-13, 21:17
Hi All
I thought I may be on the road to recovery, after three years of no work, I got myself a small part time job and started getting back a little more confidence and although I still feel low and anxious pre menstrually, I try not to beat myself up about that and allow that I won't feel great at those times. The past coupld of weeks, I have felt low and have a constant background anxiousness. That feeling of not being quite with it or being able to concentrate, not being able to fully relax in company etc.
My dad has had some small strokes recently so I have been doing a lot of the driving for my family as well as the small job and I know it has been Christmas and New year and winter always makes me feel low.
Also for some reason when I get these feelings I miss my ex boyfriend so much, we were together 10 years and have a lot of lovely memories. Even though I have a new boyfriend ( for nearly a year now) and I he is much more understanding to my ways, I sometimes feel like my heart is being ripped out with heartache for the experiences I shared with my ex.
I am so tired of not feeling consistent from day to day, one minute I feel on the up, but when anxious feelings and a tight chest creep in, I could cry and feel hopeless.
I have been on 35mg of clomipramine for 21 weeks and prior to that was on 140mg lofepramine for a year which was so so but not great. I have tried sert and fluox inbetween but I can't tolerate ssri's.
Any wise words or advice from fellow nmp members.
purplepie xx
I thought I may be on the road to recovery, after three years of no work, I got myself a small part time job and started getting back a little more confidence and although I still feel low and anxious pre menstrually, I try not to beat myself up about that and allow that I won't feel great at those times. The past coupld of weeks, I have felt low and have a constant background anxiousness. That feeling of not being quite with it or being able to concentrate, not being able to fully relax in company etc.
My dad has had some small strokes recently so I have been doing a lot of the driving for my family as well as the small job and I know it has been Christmas and New year and winter always makes me feel low.
Also for some reason when I get these feelings I miss my ex boyfriend so much, we were together 10 years and have a lot of lovely memories. Even though I have a new boyfriend ( for nearly a year now) and I he is much more understanding to my ways, I sometimes feel like my heart is being ripped out with heartache for the experiences I shared with my ex.
I am so tired of not feeling consistent from day to day, one minute I feel on the up, but when anxious feelings and a tight chest creep in, I could cry and feel hopeless.
I have been on 35mg of clomipramine for 21 weeks and prior to that was on 140mg lofepramine for a year which was so so but not great. I have tried sert and fluox inbetween but I can't tolerate ssri's.
Any wise words or advice from fellow nmp members.
purplepie xx