turtleonaleash
03-01-13, 23:18
Hi All,
I haven't posted here in a very long time but I've reached a new low point. I'm a 24 year old female and I've been battling panic attacks and agoraphobia for the last three years straight. I took Citalopram last year and it helped a lot and then I was feeling so great I decided to come off it. I was fine for a few months but now I'm terrified to leave my house again. I've been back on 20mg of Citalopram for 4 weeks now (as well as 15mg Mirtazapine) and I am in a constant state of panic. For the last month and a bit I've been afraid that I'm not really here, I'm afraid everything is a dream or worse - I'm laying in a hospital bed in a coma somewhere and this is all just my imagination. Yesterday I went out for a bit with my dad and I was convinced I was going to kill myself. I was so afraid I was going to drive my car into on coming traffic. I didn't want to, but I just couldn't stop thinking about it. I was supposed to return to college yesterday but I just couldn't. I've been trying to get in with the psychiatrist I use to see but he can't see me until March!
My friends and family members are all so disappointed in me.
I've never experienced this feeling before. Could it be a side effect from the Citalopram? I have been reading on here that once you just "accept' it, it will eventually pass, but I just can't. I try and try but I just end up more hysterical. Any words of advice on how to make this blasted thing go away is greatly appreciated.
-Jacqueline
I haven't posted here in a very long time but I've reached a new low point. I'm a 24 year old female and I've been battling panic attacks and agoraphobia for the last three years straight. I took Citalopram last year and it helped a lot and then I was feeling so great I decided to come off it. I was fine for a few months but now I'm terrified to leave my house again. I've been back on 20mg of Citalopram for 4 weeks now (as well as 15mg Mirtazapine) and I am in a constant state of panic. For the last month and a bit I've been afraid that I'm not really here, I'm afraid everything is a dream or worse - I'm laying in a hospital bed in a coma somewhere and this is all just my imagination. Yesterday I went out for a bit with my dad and I was convinced I was going to kill myself. I was so afraid I was going to drive my car into on coming traffic. I didn't want to, but I just couldn't stop thinking about it. I was supposed to return to college yesterday but I just couldn't. I've been trying to get in with the psychiatrist I use to see but he can't see me until March!
My friends and family members are all so disappointed in me.
I've never experienced this feeling before. Could it be a side effect from the Citalopram? I have been reading on here that once you just "accept' it, it will eventually pass, but I just can't. I try and try but I just end up more hysterical. Any words of advice on how to make this blasted thing go away is greatly appreciated.
-Jacqueline