sarbr
04-01-13, 21:21
Hi everyone,
I've just joined here because I have no one else to talk to who even remotely understands (or cares) and I'm sure you guys will much much better at relating to me and giving me some advice. I'm 19 and have just started studying at uni this year. I'm doing a healthcare course which is quite demanding at the best of times!
For as long as I can remember now I've suffered from anxiety and it's always made everything so much more of a struggle, and has often caused me not to succeed to my potential. I've hardly told anyone that I suffer from anxiety including not telling my parents. Those who I have told just look at me like I'm crazy and never ask me about it again. I have great friends but they have no clue just how much it affects me because I always put on a brave and cheerful face!
Since I've started uni I've made some really good friends but I couldn't feel more lonely. I told one of my flatmates one night and she didn't really respond..again since then she's not once asked me how I'm doing! For the course that I'm doing you have to have at least 90% attendance, expect once again I started to let the work build up which made me dread going in and I started to skip loads of lectures. All my classmates think that I'm scatty and lazy but really I feel like I'm clutching at straws. Just before we broke up I got called in for a meeting about my attendance with my tutor because it was so low. As soon as she asked me why I burst into tears and told her everything. She was so nice and understanding and told me we could sort this out. She gave me a mitigating circumstances form that means I can't fail anything this year and has referred me to the uni mental health team.
That was such a relief but I can't help but worry about how I'm ever going to survive on my own. Especially with the job I'm going into where you always have to be on the ball and assertive. I've already been on one placement and the woman told me that I was nowhere near assertive enough and lacked common sense. The thing is that when I'm not anxious I'm so confident and would be so good at a job like this!
Will I ever be able to work somewhere that's so demanding?? Does anyone have any first hand experience or advice about a similar situation?
Good or bad stories I just want to hear someone else who's gone through something similar!
Thanks for taking the time to read this :)
Sarah
I've just joined here because I have no one else to talk to who even remotely understands (or cares) and I'm sure you guys will much much better at relating to me and giving me some advice. I'm 19 and have just started studying at uni this year. I'm doing a healthcare course which is quite demanding at the best of times!
For as long as I can remember now I've suffered from anxiety and it's always made everything so much more of a struggle, and has often caused me not to succeed to my potential. I've hardly told anyone that I suffer from anxiety including not telling my parents. Those who I have told just look at me like I'm crazy and never ask me about it again. I have great friends but they have no clue just how much it affects me because I always put on a brave and cheerful face!
Since I've started uni I've made some really good friends but I couldn't feel more lonely. I told one of my flatmates one night and she didn't really respond..again since then she's not once asked me how I'm doing! For the course that I'm doing you have to have at least 90% attendance, expect once again I started to let the work build up which made me dread going in and I started to skip loads of lectures. All my classmates think that I'm scatty and lazy but really I feel like I'm clutching at straws. Just before we broke up I got called in for a meeting about my attendance with my tutor because it was so low. As soon as she asked me why I burst into tears and told her everything. She was so nice and understanding and told me we could sort this out. She gave me a mitigating circumstances form that means I can't fail anything this year and has referred me to the uni mental health team.
That was such a relief but I can't help but worry about how I'm ever going to survive on my own. Especially with the job I'm going into where you always have to be on the ball and assertive. I've already been on one placement and the woman told me that I was nowhere near assertive enough and lacked common sense. The thing is that when I'm not anxious I'm so confident and would be so good at a job like this!
Will I ever be able to work somewhere that's so demanding?? Does anyone have any first hand experience or advice about a similar situation?
Good or bad stories I just want to hear someone else who's gone through something similar!
Thanks for taking the time to read this :)
Sarah