BlueEyes28
05-01-13, 16:04
What is the point? I'm so scared and depressed I suffer with H\A and have done for 11 yrs! Although I had bouts of it not all the time. I had a full 8 yr period practicaly anxiety free! I had a bad bout six months ago and my meds where changed from venlefaxine to lexapro, the lex worked enough for me to live well without hardly any anxiety but i never felt as good on them as i did on the ven. I have been a lot more tired, short tempered and not as able to cope with every daynstuff as well. Anyway just bfore Christmas my partner had to go to his home country for 2 months* (he's due back at the end of this month) Then there was Christmas to deal with ect... So i ended up back down again! I can't move forward, i have been refered to a phsyciatrist but god knows now long that will take! Then* i will have a med review which is what I really want, but until then i.m stuck in this hell! I've also been refered.for CBT again on a waiting list! I just see my future of always coming back to this hellish plave and thats what scares me, it affects my whole family when im like this and i dont want them or.me to keep going through this! All i ever see on here is people saying just live the best you can! I dont want to do that i want to be free of this hell! Also i dont think my partner deserves someone like me, he could have a “normal“ person. He doesn't understand either so can'z be much help, so what.do i do? Im in so much mental pain i don't know where to turn can anyone give me some reasurance in any way?