Catalyst
06-01-13, 01:16
My mum took me & the family to see The Lion King last week. It was amazing, except... the seating arrangement was a nightmare for me!
We were on the top tier and man, was it steep!! It caught me off guard. I hadn't even thought for a minute that I would have a problem, but as soon as I walked out the door on to the tier I knew I was going to have big problems. The seats were so hemmed in and when I say steep, I mean really steep! Even my sister made the comment that the seats should come with seat belts! It felt like you were literally tilted forward! Then there were the "uneven stairs". There were signs everywhere warning of this, but the reality was that one step down was half the depth of the following one. What's the deal with that?! I had to cling on to the railing and could just feel my anxiety brewing. Then I had to walk across the front of the balcony and could feel the whole flipping thing shaking under my feet. I made it to my seat, but then the panic set in - "what if I need to get out?"
I found it all really hard to cope with & was so frustrated with myself because this was my mum's treat for the family after all and I really wanted it to be a positive experience and memory. Part way through I needed the loo and made a bid for the ladies. I got there, but my heart was pounding - I could hear the song "Hakuna Matata" in the background... the irony wasn't lost on me! :blush:
I don't really know what to make of the experience. The dizziness and sense of vertigo that I got was uncontrollable, but I do think panic took over and that makes me cross with myself.
I've just realised that this doesn't sound like a health anxiety issue - wow, I hope my anxiety isn't pushing beyond that now. I am currently incredibly anxious about dizzyness though - particularly in regard to it affecting my job. Incidentally, its officially my birthday now. Yay! I guess I shouldn't me here typing this and feeling like everything is doomed should I?!
We were on the top tier and man, was it steep!! It caught me off guard. I hadn't even thought for a minute that I would have a problem, but as soon as I walked out the door on to the tier I knew I was going to have big problems. The seats were so hemmed in and when I say steep, I mean really steep! Even my sister made the comment that the seats should come with seat belts! It felt like you were literally tilted forward! Then there were the "uneven stairs". There were signs everywhere warning of this, but the reality was that one step down was half the depth of the following one. What's the deal with that?! I had to cling on to the railing and could just feel my anxiety brewing. Then I had to walk across the front of the balcony and could feel the whole flipping thing shaking under my feet. I made it to my seat, but then the panic set in - "what if I need to get out?"
I found it all really hard to cope with & was so frustrated with myself because this was my mum's treat for the family after all and I really wanted it to be a positive experience and memory. Part way through I needed the loo and made a bid for the ladies. I got there, but my heart was pounding - I could hear the song "Hakuna Matata" in the background... the irony wasn't lost on me! :blush:
I don't really know what to make of the experience. The dizziness and sense of vertigo that I got was uncontrollable, but I do think panic took over and that makes me cross with myself.
I've just realised that this doesn't sound like a health anxiety issue - wow, I hope my anxiety isn't pushing beyond that now. I am currently incredibly anxious about dizzyness though - particularly in regard to it affecting my job. Incidentally, its officially my birthday now. Yay! I guess I shouldn't me here typing this and feeling like everything is doomed should I?!