odgalvin
08-01-13, 19:27
I just came back from the Christmas holiday. For a couple of weeks before the holiday I had started to really feel scared, anxious and depressed. Being home for the holiday helped but now it's back.
A main part of it is fear of being lonely. My parents are at home and they're great, I have friends around me at Uni, but I can't help being scared of my parents dying, and ending up with no one to care for me. I still feel like a child in that respect (I'm 19).
Another thought I can't get out of my head is what I'll do after Uni. I'd have to live alone, could I ever commit to a relationship, and how would I cope? How would I make it through each day alone and not go mad?
I wish I could just relax and live in the moment, but it's so hard.
I don't care about things anymore, I can't enjoy things and I constantly want to cry and can't eat, or just get drunk to forget about things. Sometimes I get over what I'm worried I still feel bad, it's like I'm still anxious somewhere in the back of my head. My exams are next week too which I'm worried about.
I wrote more about symptoms and history of treatment here: nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=127802 (won't let me post proper links)
I wish I could see a counsellor, I'm fed up of waiting...
Anyone in the same position, or any advice? Thanks.
A main part of it is fear of being lonely. My parents are at home and they're great, I have friends around me at Uni, but I can't help being scared of my parents dying, and ending up with no one to care for me. I still feel like a child in that respect (I'm 19).
Another thought I can't get out of my head is what I'll do after Uni. I'd have to live alone, could I ever commit to a relationship, and how would I cope? How would I make it through each day alone and not go mad?
I wish I could just relax and live in the moment, but it's so hard.
I don't care about things anymore, I can't enjoy things and I constantly want to cry and can't eat, or just get drunk to forget about things. Sometimes I get over what I'm worried I still feel bad, it's like I'm still anxious somewhere in the back of my head. My exams are next week too which I'm worried about.
I wrote more about symptoms and history of treatment here: nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=127802 (won't let me post proper links)
I wish I could see a counsellor, I'm fed up of waiting...
Anyone in the same position, or any advice? Thanks.