Aubrey
15-01-13, 09:39
I have struggled for six years with a physical/mental disorder regarding my bladder. I've lived my life, since i was fifteen making sure I am ALWAYS near a toilet. I have dreadful anxiety, and it is worse than ever.
I would often get a general discomfort in my bladder or urethra, but a couple of years ago, I had learnt to deal with it well. Now, my physical symptoms have changed and my anxiety has worsened because of it.
I'd often be okay in my home, and discomfort would flare up with the anxiety of being outside. Now, these last few months, the feeling in my bladder has totally changed. I have a constant bloated feeling around my bladder area. My pelvic muscles feel as if they are relaxed and it means I feel much more prone to wetting myself. I have to fidged and stand in awkward positions as the pressure is very intense. It has made me completely housebound, I do not go out, I do not even feel comfortable annd safe at home.
I woke an hour and a half ago and after going to the toilet once already, my bladder feels swollen, my urethra area is tingling and my pf muscles feel almost numb.
I think I have relatively good strong pf muscles and at 22, I am only young. I see a counselor every so often but as we discuss the anxiety side, there's not a great deal she can tell me about this constant discomfort.
I am crying out for help, I feel very alone. Last night, I went to the toilet, and then started making dinner. I had to crouch down on the floor in the kitchen to try to alliviate the pressure in my lower abdomen, fearful I was going to wet myself, I found myself squatting there in front of the oven asking myself "what the hell are you doing?
Is this anxiety? I feel I am always on edge. How can I ever make it stop.
---------- Post added at 10:39 ---------- Previous post was at 10:30 ----------
I have been telling myself that if I want to go out then I've just got to deal with the fact I'll probably just wet myself often. I have tried to see a doctor about this before, but as I'm clearly a ball of anxiety, they tell me it's a symptom of being anxious. I'm in this constant cycle of anxiety - physical symptoms- anxiety about physical symptoms- physical symptoms worsen and so on. :'(
I would often get a general discomfort in my bladder or urethra, but a couple of years ago, I had learnt to deal with it well. Now, my physical symptoms have changed and my anxiety has worsened because of it.
I'd often be okay in my home, and discomfort would flare up with the anxiety of being outside. Now, these last few months, the feeling in my bladder has totally changed. I have a constant bloated feeling around my bladder area. My pelvic muscles feel as if they are relaxed and it means I feel much more prone to wetting myself. I have to fidged and stand in awkward positions as the pressure is very intense. It has made me completely housebound, I do not go out, I do not even feel comfortable annd safe at home.
I woke an hour and a half ago and after going to the toilet once already, my bladder feels swollen, my urethra area is tingling and my pf muscles feel almost numb.
I think I have relatively good strong pf muscles and at 22, I am only young. I see a counselor every so often but as we discuss the anxiety side, there's not a great deal she can tell me about this constant discomfort.
I am crying out for help, I feel very alone. Last night, I went to the toilet, and then started making dinner. I had to crouch down on the floor in the kitchen to try to alliviate the pressure in my lower abdomen, fearful I was going to wet myself, I found myself squatting there in front of the oven asking myself "what the hell are you doing?
Is this anxiety? I feel I am always on edge. How can I ever make it stop.
---------- Post added at 10:39 ---------- Previous post was at 10:30 ----------
I have been telling myself that if I want to go out then I've just got to deal with the fact I'll probably just wet myself often. I have tried to see a doctor about this before, but as I'm clearly a ball of anxiety, they tell me it's a symptom of being anxious. I'm in this constant cycle of anxiety - physical symptoms- anxiety about physical symptoms- physical symptoms worsen and so on. :'(