samtheman
16-01-13, 17:16
I have finally reached the end of my tether with this and need some help on where to start addressing the problem.
I first started having panic attacks back in the early 00’s, these progressed into generalized anxiety, social anxiety and depression and have stayed with me ever since.
I first went to my doctor back in the early 00’s when I was having panic attacks, she prescribed meds (sertraline) but I was scared to take them, I went back and explained all the ins and outs etc but I was still to scared to take them so I gave up on doctors and tried my best to cope. My coping techniques involved cutting myself of from people, not going anywhere to the extent my world has become enclosed to a 10 mile radius and I get anxiety venturing any further.
But aswell as that I have found I am filled with anger, I explode at family, I have a wife and 3 kids, I am writing this alone in the bedroom on my son’s birthday as I have managed to fall out with everyone over something stupid, My anger got the better of me and I exploded again, so I said to myself rather that annoy anyone else I’ll just leave everyone alone, I rarely have anything good to say about anyone, it just feels like the world itself is against me, I can only assume all this is down to depression.
Then there is work, I’ve been working 15 odd years, prior to my anxiety issues I never had a problem at work, but since then work has been a nightmare, I have no interest in it, although I go every day I’m at the stage I have cramps etc going to work as I don’t want to go, I change jobs quite regular but it’s always the am story I don’t fit in, hate the work and would all just rather be left alone somewhere, and I think that sums up my life in general, I would rather just be left alone somewhere, as I mentioned above I have kids a family, I should be spending time with them, being a good Dad but in reality I am glued to this computer any free time I get as it takes me out of my current circumstance if you know what I mean.
So I have some major long term issues and don’t know where to start addressing them, I realised last night I need to sort myself out when I started googling info on how to break my wrist, daft as this sounds it was to get me out of working, I just can’t face it anymore.
So I’ve got anger, depression, general anxiety, panic attacks and social anxiety, I would say 1 of these is the main culprit and the rest are symptoms, but I’ve read books and done course on all them and nothing worked.
Sorry for the long post but hopefully someone can relate to this or offer some advice?
I first started having panic attacks back in the early 00’s, these progressed into generalized anxiety, social anxiety and depression and have stayed with me ever since.
I first went to my doctor back in the early 00’s when I was having panic attacks, she prescribed meds (sertraline) but I was scared to take them, I went back and explained all the ins and outs etc but I was still to scared to take them so I gave up on doctors and tried my best to cope. My coping techniques involved cutting myself of from people, not going anywhere to the extent my world has become enclosed to a 10 mile radius and I get anxiety venturing any further.
But aswell as that I have found I am filled with anger, I explode at family, I have a wife and 3 kids, I am writing this alone in the bedroom on my son’s birthday as I have managed to fall out with everyone over something stupid, My anger got the better of me and I exploded again, so I said to myself rather that annoy anyone else I’ll just leave everyone alone, I rarely have anything good to say about anyone, it just feels like the world itself is against me, I can only assume all this is down to depression.
Then there is work, I’ve been working 15 odd years, prior to my anxiety issues I never had a problem at work, but since then work has been a nightmare, I have no interest in it, although I go every day I’m at the stage I have cramps etc going to work as I don’t want to go, I change jobs quite regular but it’s always the am story I don’t fit in, hate the work and would all just rather be left alone somewhere, and I think that sums up my life in general, I would rather just be left alone somewhere, as I mentioned above I have kids a family, I should be spending time with them, being a good Dad but in reality I am glued to this computer any free time I get as it takes me out of my current circumstance if you know what I mean.
So I have some major long term issues and don’t know where to start addressing them, I realised last night I need to sort myself out when I started googling info on how to break my wrist, daft as this sounds it was to get me out of working, I just can’t face it anymore.
So I’ve got anger, depression, general anxiety, panic attacks and social anxiety, I would say 1 of these is the main culprit and the rest are symptoms, but I’ve read books and done course on all them and nothing worked.
Sorry for the long post but hopefully someone can relate to this or offer some advice?