tasha87
18-01-13, 09:56
Hi everyone,
I'm new to the forum, and to HA. This has been going on for a month and a half for me and I feel I can't take anymore already :(
My fears started with what was my first panic attack and I haven't been myself since that day. Firstly I thought I had pneumonia as I was suffering from a chronic cough for weeks. The GP reassured me it wasn't that and after a couple of visits back and forth, and one trip to the ER. I was told I was suffering from Anxiety. At this stage, thanks to Dr Google I had self diagnosed myself with leukaemia, despite the fact the ER had ran my bloods and done a chest x-ray which were clear. So the GP ran more blood tests. Everything came back normal except high levels of cortisol and prolactin, (which I am being retested for tomorrow) the FBC were all within normal ranges.
This provided temporary relief of course, but I was still prescribed Zoloft and Xanax to help me to deal with my issues. I have also had 2 CBT sessions, so far so good. I really am trying to make myself get over this. I have been on Zoloft for just over 2 weeks and was just getting over the side effects, starting to feel a bit better again, and got my appetite back!
That was until yesterday, when I started feeling a sore throat and a cough starting to return. I put it down to my sinuses, as I have always suffered with them for as long as I can remember. Every morning without fail I sneeze at least ten times and my nose runs like a tap! I've also felt headache more like pressure around my temples, and my glands are a little swollen and painful. This of course has reinforced my leukaemia fears. And I am back at square one. I am so angry at myself for letting myself get into this state again. I feel nauseous again, which I'm sure I am doing to myself through anxiety. I guess I am mad because I just started to feel better and this happened to me.
Why can't I accept that the doctor was not concerned by my test results? that maybe it is just my sinuses acting up? I had to leave my job over this and I spend all day at home bed bound. I Don't really have anyone to talk with about this who understands. I live abroad, away from my family which is extremely difficult for me at this time, I just want to be at home.
Anyway thanks for reading this. Any insight, or maybe a "get real" slap would be welcome, LOL! I respect and admire anyone struggling with anxiety, it is truly one of the worst feelings I have ever experienced. I just pray I can get through this and get back to my old happy self.
Its great there are forums like this where you can be reassured you are not alone.
Take Care :hugs:
T xxx
I'm new to the forum, and to HA. This has been going on for a month and a half for me and I feel I can't take anymore already :(
My fears started with what was my first panic attack and I haven't been myself since that day. Firstly I thought I had pneumonia as I was suffering from a chronic cough for weeks. The GP reassured me it wasn't that and after a couple of visits back and forth, and one trip to the ER. I was told I was suffering from Anxiety. At this stage, thanks to Dr Google I had self diagnosed myself with leukaemia, despite the fact the ER had ran my bloods and done a chest x-ray which were clear. So the GP ran more blood tests. Everything came back normal except high levels of cortisol and prolactin, (which I am being retested for tomorrow) the FBC were all within normal ranges.
This provided temporary relief of course, but I was still prescribed Zoloft and Xanax to help me to deal with my issues. I have also had 2 CBT sessions, so far so good. I really am trying to make myself get over this. I have been on Zoloft for just over 2 weeks and was just getting over the side effects, starting to feel a bit better again, and got my appetite back!
That was until yesterday, when I started feeling a sore throat and a cough starting to return. I put it down to my sinuses, as I have always suffered with them for as long as I can remember. Every morning without fail I sneeze at least ten times and my nose runs like a tap! I've also felt headache more like pressure around my temples, and my glands are a little swollen and painful. This of course has reinforced my leukaemia fears. And I am back at square one. I am so angry at myself for letting myself get into this state again. I feel nauseous again, which I'm sure I am doing to myself through anxiety. I guess I am mad because I just started to feel better and this happened to me.
Why can't I accept that the doctor was not concerned by my test results? that maybe it is just my sinuses acting up? I had to leave my job over this and I spend all day at home bed bound. I Don't really have anyone to talk with about this who understands. I live abroad, away from my family which is extremely difficult for me at this time, I just want to be at home.
Anyway thanks for reading this. Any insight, or maybe a "get real" slap would be welcome, LOL! I respect and admire anyone struggling with anxiety, it is truly one of the worst feelings I have ever experienced. I just pray I can get through this and get back to my old happy self.
Its great there are forums like this where you can be reassured you are not alone.
Take Care :hugs:
T xxx