HM2012
19-01-13, 20:34
Hi everyone! Been a while but having another bad spell :(
I had a good Christmas, my last panic attack was about a week
before Christmas! Until yesterday morning.
I've been applying for new jobs & this week I had my first interview.
The first part on Wednesday I went in feeling confident, I was so shocked
at myself because I didn't think i'd be able to do it! I passed & got called
back for the second & final part which was yesterday morning.
I was nervous about this because I knew it was the final one.
I tried not to let nerves get the better of me but once I arrived in the
car park I freaked out! I had a full blown panic attack! I couldn't breathe,
felt as if I was about to faint/die, I was so shaken up because it couldn't
have happened at a worse time! I sat in my car for 20 mins to try & calm
myself down, & I did, to a certain degree! I got out my car and said '**** this,
it's now or never' and went inside to do the second part of my interview.
They could tell I wasn't myself & I just wanted to get it over & done with!
I battled through & answered everything they asked whilst feeling DR/DP.
IT WAS HELL. I honestly thought there's no way on earth i'll get this job!
Left, went back home, went straight to bed because I felt terrible!
Two hours later I was woken up with a phone call telling me i'd got the job!
I didn't know how to feel, a part of me was over the moon, & the other part,
I kept thinking 'I feel awful, I can't do this'
Since yesterday happened i've been having mini bursts of panic attacks,
feeling lost touch with reality etc. I feel like i'm not here now whilst
typing this! It's really ****ing scary :( I don't start my job until the 28th.
I'm scared i'm going to get panic attacks when I start my job & I don't want
to blow it or ruin anything because it's the best opportunity i've ever had!
Can someone, anyone, please give me some tips/help me? :( xx
I had a good Christmas, my last panic attack was about a week
before Christmas! Until yesterday morning.
I've been applying for new jobs & this week I had my first interview.
The first part on Wednesday I went in feeling confident, I was so shocked
at myself because I didn't think i'd be able to do it! I passed & got called
back for the second & final part which was yesterday morning.
I was nervous about this because I knew it was the final one.
I tried not to let nerves get the better of me but once I arrived in the
car park I freaked out! I had a full blown panic attack! I couldn't breathe,
felt as if I was about to faint/die, I was so shaken up because it couldn't
have happened at a worse time! I sat in my car for 20 mins to try & calm
myself down, & I did, to a certain degree! I got out my car and said '**** this,
it's now or never' and went inside to do the second part of my interview.
They could tell I wasn't myself & I just wanted to get it over & done with!
I battled through & answered everything they asked whilst feeling DR/DP.
IT WAS HELL. I honestly thought there's no way on earth i'll get this job!
Left, went back home, went straight to bed because I felt terrible!
Two hours later I was woken up with a phone call telling me i'd got the job!
I didn't know how to feel, a part of me was over the moon, & the other part,
I kept thinking 'I feel awful, I can't do this'
Since yesterday happened i've been having mini bursts of panic attacks,
feeling lost touch with reality etc. I feel like i'm not here now whilst
typing this! It's really ****ing scary :( I don't start my job until the 28th.
I'm scared i'm going to get panic attacks when I start my job & I don't want
to blow it or ruin anything because it's the best opportunity i've ever had!
Can someone, anyone, please give me some tips/help me? :( xx