maximus1975
20-01-13, 14:36
well i made it round my daily walk today which took at least 30 mins, 2 days ago i couldnt do more than 5 mins without having to run home as fast as i can shut the door i get my breathing under control , so i guess theres some improvement there, i guess a few days ago although i was trying to block the thought out of this colonscopy and there must have been some background anxiety there , especially when my dr said they would be looking to see if there was any cancer there my heart started thuding bigtime.
today is day 7 af so i guess my withdrawal maybe getting slightly better,
one thing im really struggling with is the fact i want my old job back it was a really good job not amazing pay but i was bloody good at it , this time last year i was writing for a national fishkeeping magazine , doing lectures and generally enjoying life , then i let booze ruin everything i had several warnings about my drinking but thinking i was so good at my job they wouldnt get rid of me . how wrong i was !!!
i see the shops facebook page all the time and it guts me as i was the one who created it ,someone else is now updating it.
im wondering wether to contact my old boss to ask him if one day there is a chance of me returning to the company? i have serious doubts wether it will happen i would have to be totally sober that is for sure. i made him a lot of money so that is in my favour but on the downside i caused him alot of hassle , as im banned from driving i couldnt go back now even if i wanted to.
god only no's what im gunna do for a new job? i guess i need to get my mental health in better shape first
today is day 7 af so i guess my withdrawal maybe getting slightly better,
one thing im really struggling with is the fact i want my old job back it was a really good job not amazing pay but i was bloody good at it , this time last year i was writing for a national fishkeeping magazine , doing lectures and generally enjoying life , then i let booze ruin everything i had several warnings about my drinking but thinking i was so good at my job they wouldnt get rid of me . how wrong i was !!!
i see the shops facebook page all the time and it guts me as i was the one who created it ,someone else is now updating it.
im wondering wether to contact my old boss to ask him if one day there is a chance of me returning to the company? i have serious doubts wether it will happen i would have to be totally sober that is for sure. i made him a lot of money so that is in my favour but on the downside i caused him alot of hassle , as im banned from driving i couldnt go back now even if i wanted to.
god only no's what im gunna do for a new job? i guess i need to get my mental health in better shape first