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22-01-13, 16:06
Just found this site today and everyone seems very nice and helpful.
I have suffered bouts of depression for practically all of my life, but didn't realise it was depression until i was in my mid 30's. I have been on Anti depressants a few times but i don't like them as i feel that they make me have a careless sort of attitude towards life. I have seen a Psychotherapist in the past as well as being involved with group therapy and more recently i finished a course of CBT. I did quite like the CBT treatment but the one problem i found that you have to keep doing it every day, and me keeping motivated every day is pretty damn hard, especially when i'm sitting at home staring at my laptop all day. I constantly wonder why i cant motivate myself to do even the most simplest of tasks. Just picking up the phone to make a quick phone call is hard. Looking for a job is hard. Doing small daily tasks is hard, in fact doing anything other than just sit at my Laptop wasting time is a constant niggle! Funnily enough if you were to meet or speak to me you wouldn't notice that there was a problem, as i'm fine in peoples company, i'm just not fine with my own! As soon as my wife goes to work in the morning i just do nothing and wait for her to get home. I feel pretty useless to be honest and at 53 i cant see how i can change this. I have real anxiety issues and get anxious at the slightest thing. I left my last job because my boss was nothing but a bully, a nice guy he is but nevertheless a bully all the same. I thought by joining a forum such as this may help as i can get advice from others who may have experienced something similar to me.
Thank you for taking the time out to read this post. :)
I have suffered bouts of depression for practically all of my life, but didn't realise it was depression until i was in my mid 30's. I have been on Anti depressants a few times but i don't like them as i feel that they make me have a careless sort of attitude towards life. I have seen a Psychotherapist in the past as well as being involved with group therapy and more recently i finished a course of CBT. I did quite like the CBT treatment but the one problem i found that you have to keep doing it every day, and me keeping motivated every day is pretty damn hard, especially when i'm sitting at home staring at my laptop all day. I constantly wonder why i cant motivate myself to do even the most simplest of tasks. Just picking up the phone to make a quick phone call is hard. Looking for a job is hard. Doing small daily tasks is hard, in fact doing anything other than just sit at my Laptop wasting time is a constant niggle! Funnily enough if you were to meet or speak to me you wouldn't notice that there was a problem, as i'm fine in peoples company, i'm just not fine with my own! As soon as my wife goes to work in the morning i just do nothing and wait for her to get home. I feel pretty useless to be honest and at 53 i cant see how i can change this. I have real anxiety issues and get anxious at the slightest thing. I left my last job because my boss was nothing but a bully, a nice guy he is but nevertheless a bully all the same. I thought by joining a forum such as this may help as i can get advice from others who may have experienced something similar to me.
Thank you for taking the time out to read this post. :)