PinkRoxy
25-01-13, 09:21
I have been feeling really down lately as I have been suffering depression and have been finding it hard to cope with small things and things really get to me. I have been feeling upset all the time and wanting to cry all the time.
I feel like such a bad friend because I cannot seem to bring myself to hang out with them and when I do I don't enjoy it I feel like I am being boring. At the moment one of my really good friends is going through some issues at the moment with her family and finding out she is pregnant. I am usually the one that helps her through things and she tells me everything and I always listen. The thing is is that she tells me things she wont tell anyone else and it feels like she loads all her problems on to me and I would love to help her out and I do try to. But a lot lately I feel like I cant deal with it I end up getting mad at her and then I feel bad that I end up crying over it.
Today she told me that her work was giving her a hard time and so she had to hand in her notice today and now she doesn't know what to do. Me being at the end of my contraceptive pill I am also experiencing the feelings of PMS as well as the depression so this morning all I wanted to do was lie in bed crying.
I felt so guilty not responding to my friend and so I texted her if she wanted to catch up so I can have a chat to her to find out what is going on with her. So I went out this afternoon to visit her and all I wanted to do was spend the day to myself as I was feeling really bad.
The visit went ok I guess but I was just not happy. The point is I really do want to help my friends out and arrange times to spend with them as I love them very much but at times I feel so bad that I dont want to do anything with them or even bring myself to arrange to do something with them.
I dont want to tell them about my depression as I find it embarrassing to do so even though I feel like I need to tell someone but I am seeing my doctor on Wednesday.
Has anyone experience this problem with friends while you have been feeling really bad and depressed? What should I do about this?
Its so bad I feel like saying I dont want to deal with your problems right now but I cant and when I do I feel so bad and want to cry more over it. Its doing my head in.
I feel like such a bad friend because I cannot seem to bring myself to hang out with them and when I do I don't enjoy it I feel like I am being boring. At the moment one of my really good friends is going through some issues at the moment with her family and finding out she is pregnant. I am usually the one that helps her through things and she tells me everything and I always listen. The thing is is that she tells me things she wont tell anyone else and it feels like she loads all her problems on to me and I would love to help her out and I do try to. But a lot lately I feel like I cant deal with it I end up getting mad at her and then I feel bad that I end up crying over it.
Today she told me that her work was giving her a hard time and so she had to hand in her notice today and now she doesn't know what to do. Me being at the end of my contraceptive pill I am also experiencing the feelings of PMS as well as the depression so this morning all I wanted to do was lie in bed crying.
I felt so guilty not responding to my friend and so I texted her if she wanted to catch up so I can have a chat to her to find out what is going on with her. So I went out this afternoon to visit her and all I wanted to do was spend the day to myself as I was feeling really bad.
The visit went ok I guess but I was just not happy. The point is I really do want to help my friends out and arrange times to spend with them as I love them very much but at times I feel so bad that I dont want to do anything with them or even bring myself to arrange to do something with them.
I dont want to tell them about my depression as I find it embarrassing to do so even though I feel like I need to tell someone but I am seeing my doctor on Wednesday.
Has anyone experience this problem with friends while you have been feeling really bad and depressed? What should I do about this?
Its so bad I feel like saying I dont want to deal with your problems right now but I cant and when I do I feel so bad and want to cry more over it. Its doing my head in.