debbsi
26-01-13, 17:09
just need to vent my anger at feeling this way, Im sure it will make me feel a bit better.
Ive had HA for years, have my good and bad times. Most recently Ive been obsessing over body sensations that I know full well are brought on by HA as theyre not there when Im distracted, but my mind doesnt seem to understand that. Then my DH had a problem with blurred vision this week, it went away but I kept obsessing over it and made him go to the ED, he then ended up at and emergency eye clinic and they referred him to a TIA clinic!! I work in stroke so I was really panicing then, and even though the doc said it was most likely a silent migraine, Im still worried. Then my son (he's 15) has just been shovelling snow for us and his back now hurts and he often complains of back pain, but the doc said it was vit D defficiency about 18 months ago, but yet every time he says it hurts I panic. I know its a combination of vit D, sitting in rubbish chairs at school and sitting at the pc too long and he doesnt do any back exercises at the gym - oh and hes growing at an unbelievable rate. But yet my stupid mind still worries. ARGGGHHHH. Also Im in my final year at uni, I also work and have loads of assessments coming up so Im worried about that too.
I wish I was normal, I wish my worry dial would just turn itself down, ive had 2 courses of cbt, i dont want meds, ive been referred for a MBCT course. and to top it all off I want to work in mental health!!! Sure ill fit right in lol
Well i dont really feel much better after my rant, will I ever get over worrying. Why do I automatically jump to the worse case scenario, grrrr
Ive had HA for years, have my good and bad times. Most recently Ive been obsessing over body sensations that I know full well are brought on by HA as theyre not there when Im distracted, but my mind doesnt seem to understand that. Then my DH had a problem with blurred vision this week, it went away but I kept obsessing over it and made him go to the ED, he then ended up at and emergency eye clinic and they referred him to a TIA clinic!! I work in stroke so I was really panicing then, and even though the doc said it was most likely a silent migraine, Im still worried. Then my son (he's 15) has just been shovelling snow for us and his back now hurts and he often complains of back pain, but the doc said it was vit D defficiency about 18 months ago, but yet every time he says it hurts I panic. I know its a combination of vit D, sitting in rubbish chairs at school and sitting at the pc too long and he doesnt do any back exercises at the gym - oh and hes growing at an unbelievable rate. But yet my stupid mind still worries. ARGGGHHHH. Also Im in my final year at uni, I also work and have loads of assessments coming up so Im worried about that too.
I wish I was normal, I wish my worry dial would just turn itself down, ive had 2 courses of cbt, i dont want meds, ive been referred for a MBCT course. and to top it all off I want to work in mental health!!! Sure ill fit right in lol
Well i dont really feel much better after my rant, will I ever get over worrying. Why do I automatically jump to the worse case scenario, grrrr