lisa1968
27-01-13, 01:36
Im convinced i have cancer, lung,stomach,breast,bone,bladder and now ovarian, i spend all day on cancer sites googling symptoms, i suffer with back,shoulder and hip pain, and urinate often, i litterally worry myself sick and lose my appetite, i weigh myself every day and if ive lost a few pounds im convinced its cancer, as this is 1 of the symptoms, so its a vicious circle, i dont know wether i feel like this because im ill or because of anxiety. This has taken over my life ,and feel like i cant carry on like this anymore. I went to hospital because of my shouder pain and they did a chest x ray, everthing came back clear, but i was even arguing with the doctor, telling hiim he may have missed something, he told me to go to doctors about my anxiety, i am at the moment awaiting blood test results, and am worried sick. I hate been so weak and meet so many positive, happy go lucky people and soo wish i could be like them, i also suffer with panic attacks and dread night times when its dark and im alone, i an a single parent and worry about my daughter, i dont want her to suffer with what ive got, but am really worried who will be there for her if i die,, i know i cant live like this for ever more, its a crippling illness and has taken over my life, i cant enjoy anything and feel like my life is over