Rls1994
28-01-13, 18:48
I'm not in school anymore, and haven't been for three years now, but when I was, I was bullied EVERYDAY. It started in year 7 and went all the way up to year 10. The first two years wasn't so bad. It was the last year that it started getting to me.
There was a certain girl that used to constantly bother me, for NO reason whatsoever. After form time, she would either hit me hard on my head in the corridor, put lots of chewing gum in my hair, trip me up or throw food at me. She wasn't the only one who did it though either. There was other kids who used to pick on me as well. Every time I got put next to someone, they'd be like, 'why do I have to sit with her? She's an ugly loser who needs to die'. There was also some guy in my Art class that used to always touch me up and stuff although I told him to keep the hell away from me. He also used to throw my school bag on the Art buildings roof. At first, I just brushed it off and tried to ignore it, but after a while it started to make me more and more angry and upset by the day.
I'm not the person that's scared to tell anything to anyone, so I went straight to the teachers and told them about it. They told me they will sort it out and ask them to leave me alone, so I thanked them and left, thinking, 'FINALLY, I'll have some peace'. I was so wrong. It continued to happen and got worse and worse every week. I kept going back to the teachers and again, they said they would sort it out, but nothing changed. What I found absolutely frustrating was that the girl that bullied me was a trouble to a lot of other students as well, so it wasn't just me. I just thought, 'if she's that much of a trouble then why don't you exclude her?'.
When I reached year 10, my only friend had left school to go to college, so I was all alone at lunch times. I tried fitting in with some of the people in my year, but I was always pushed away, or got teased. I was not going to wonder around the playground all lunch and break on my own, so I got a lunch pass and went home for the hour.
Anyway, the bullying still continued and I kept going back to the teachers every morning because I didn't want to be there anymore and they eventually got sick of me and thought I just didn't want to be there because I'm lazy and I'm making it all up. Apparently, the girl that bullied me just denied everything I told the teachers about what she was doing to me.
I had to be pulled out of the school in April 2011 as I was extremely suicidal and actually attempted it twice.
I was not doing anything for about 8 months. So I was at home with my family, and boy, my depression cleared up SO fast.
Thing is, it badly affected my grades. Well, it affected my history and Maths results the most. I got a U in history, an E in Maths and a B in English. The only reason I got a B in English was because I used to read a lot of fanfiction back in the day, and I taught myself how to write properly from reading those.
Since school, I've had VERY little interaction with other people. It's affected me terribly and now I prefer to be alone. No relationships, nothing. I love being alone. All I would like is to be with my family and possibly work one day for them. I don't think I ever will be in work though, especially with my hatred of being around other people. I don't WANT to be like this, but it's just the way I am. The slight little things people do annoy me now. But believe me when I say that I'm a REAL nice person. I love people that understand me, doesn't 'bully'/judge me for the things I like etc.
What do I do in my free days you wonder? I animate, draw and make movies out of them. I'm hoping to be a cartoonist when I'm older. That is my goal at the moment. Nothing else.
Meh, I'm sorry for rambling on. I just thought I'd share this for anyone out there that thinks they were/are alone in this.
Anyway, were you bullied in school like I was?
There was a certain girl that used to constantly bother me, for NO reason whatsoever. After form time, she would either hit me hard on my head in the corridor, put lots of chewing gum in my hair, trip me up or throw food at me. She wasn't the only one who did it though either. There was other kids who used to pick on me as well. Every time I got put next to someone, they'd be like, 'why do I have to sit with her? She's an ugly loser who needs to die'. There was also some guy in my Art class that used to always touch me up and stuff although I told him to keep the hell away from me. He also used to throw my school bag on the Art buildings roof. At first, I just brushed it off and tried to ignore it, but after a while it started to make me more and more angry and upset by the day.
I'm not the person that's scared to tell anything to anyone, so I went straight to the teachers and told them about it. They told me they will sort it out and ask them to leave me alone, so I thanked them and left, thinking, 'FINALLY, I'll have some peace'. I was so wrong. It continued to happen and got worse and worse every week. I kept going back to the teachers and again, they said they would sort it out, but nothing changed. What I found absolutely frustrating was that the girl that bullied me was a trouble to a lot of other students as well, so it wasn't just me. I just thought, 'if she's that much of a trouble then why don't you exclude her?'.
When I reached year 10, my only friend had left school to go to college, so I was all alone at lunch times. I tried fitting in with some of the people in my year, but I was always pushed away, or got teased. I was not going to wonder around the playground all lunch and break on my own, so I got a lunch pass and went home for the hour.
Anyway, the bullying still continued and I kept going back to the teachers every morning because I didn't want to be there anymore and they eventually got sick of me and thought I just didn't want to be there because I'm lazy and I'm making it all up. Apparently, the girl that bullied me just denied everything I told the teachers about what she was doing to me.
I had to be pulled out of the school in April 2011 as I was extremely suicidal and actually attempted it twice.
I was not doing anything for about 8 months. So I was at home with my family, and boy, my depression cleared up SO fast.
Thing is, it badly affected my grades. Well, it affected my history and Maths results the most. I got a U in history, an E in Maths and a B in English. The only reason I got a B in English was because I used to read a lot of fanfiction back in the day, and I taught myself how to write properly from reading those.
Since school, I've had VERY little interaction with other people. It's affected me terribly and now I prefer to be alone. No relationships, nothing. I love being alone. All I would like is to be with my family and possibly work one day for them. I don't think I ever will be in work though, especially with my hatred of being around other people. I don't WANT to be like this, but it's just the way I am. The slight little things people do annoy me now. But believe me when I say that I'm a REAL nice person. I love people that understand me, doesn't 'bully'/judge me for the things I like etc.
What do I do in my free days you wonder? I animate, draw and make movies out of them. I'm hoping to be a cartoonist when I'm older. That is my goal at the moment. Nothing else.
Meh, I'm sorry for rambling on. I just thought I'd share this for anyone out there that thinks they were/are alone in this.
Anyway, were you bullied in school like I was?