JaneS
29-01-13, 12:51
My problem is that I am driving myself mad about a situation that I don't think even happened, I am creating a scenario out of probably nothing!!!
Let me explain - started a new job in a pharmacy two weeks ago and a customer came in with some medication to return. I don't quite remember whether I took it off him or my colleague who was training me, I am almost certain I didn't do anything at all and that she dealt with it, as I was new, but I don't know. My memory cannot recall the situation at all, probably because I was stressed learning a new role and am very menopausal!! After this I had to watch a video on needlestick injuries (as part of my induction) and as a result am now convincing myself that there were sharps in the returned medication and that I may have been stabbed by a needle and caught a blood borne virus. I don't remember any stab at all or even touching the medication! To put this into perspective, the pharmacy doesn't accept sharps (but that doesn't mean they don't get brought them), I am certain that I did not suffer any needle prick anyway and I am sure it was just tablets that were returned. My mind will not let it drop and because I can't recount anything it's even worse! It's constantly at the back of my mind and hits me like an adrenalin rush every now and again. I really want to remember what happened so that I can review the situation and put it to bed, but I just can't find it in my memory - only a vague recollection of someone bringing something back!!
My husband has threatenend to send me to a psychiatrist if I carry on like this. He keeps telling me that if I had been stabbed with a needle, I would know about it and another member of staff would have reacted. Plus the fact that where we live is not a high risk area.
Does anyone else ever feel like this. Its like a "what if" scenario and keeps going round in my head. The video really freaked me out, I kind of wish I had watched it earlier and would have been in a position of knowledge rather than ignorance.
Why I am beating myself up over something that probably didn't happen (although at the back of my mind, I think it may have done!!). It didn't seem important at the time, only after watching the video has it now become so. I am tempted to talk to my supervisor but I think she will think I am nuts and I will loose the job!!
Have even booked an appointment at the Docs to talk to him about it, although what he will do is anyone's guess? I just feel safer in the knowledge that I am going to see him (again!!) I wish I could break this cycle and get on with my life.
Please help me rationalise - this is consuming me!! :lac:
Let me explain - started a new job in a pharmacy two weeks ago and a customer came in with some medication to return. I don't quite remember whether I took it off him or my colleague who was training me, I am almost certain I didn't do anything at all and that she dealt with it, as I was new, but I don't know. My memory cannot recall the situation at all, probably because I was stressed learning a new role and am very menopausal!! After this I had to watch a video on needlestick injuries (as part of my induction) and as a result am now convincing myself that there were sharps in the returned medication and that I may have been stabbed by a needle and caught a blood borne virus. I don't remember any stab at all or even touching the medication! To put this into perspective, the pharmacy doesn't accept sharps (but that doesn't mean they don't get brought them), I am certain that I did not suffer any needle prick anyway and I am sure it was just tablets that were returned. My mind will not let it drop and because I can't recount anything it's even worse! It's constantly at the back of my mind and hits me like an adrenalin rush every now and again. I really want to remember what happened so that I can review the situation and put it to bed, but I just can't find it in my memory - only a vague recollection of someone bringing something back!!
My husband has threatenend to send me to a psychiatrist if I carry on like this. He keeps telling me that if I had been stabbed with a needle, I would know about it and another member of staff would have reacted. Plus the fact that where we live is not a high risk area.
Does anyone else ever feel like this. Its like a "what if" scenario and keeps going round in my head. The video really freaked me out, I kind of wish I had watched it earlier and would have been in a position of knowledge rather than ignorance.
Why I am beating myself up over something that probably didn't happen (although at the back of my mind, I think it may have done!!). It didn't seem important at the time, only after watching the video has it now become so. I am tempted to talk to my supervisor but I think she will think I am nuts and I will loose the job!!
Have even booked an appointment at the Docs to talk to him about it, although what he will do is anyone's guess? I just feel safer in the knowledge that I am going to see him (again!!) I wish I could break this cycle and get on with my life.
Please help me rationalise - this is consuming me!! :lac: