Can't cope.

[zippy]

I can't cope with my head symptoms. I have a constant headache on and around my temple area and a feeling of pressure on my left side, earache, my left eye feels odd like its strained and sometimes it's blurry. Been awake since 6 but my mind keeps drifting off on all different things but I don't feel fully awake or asleep. I wake up feeling sick and off balance and generally feel crap and I feel like I can't think straight.
I don't feel anxious just worried about these symptoms.
I keep thinking there's got to be something serious going on like a tumour but gp said yesterday there's nothing to suggest to him that it's anything like that.
I feel like I am on the edge of losing my mind and myself.
My partner is sick of me being like this and my friend says to try and talk about something else. It just consumes my every thought because I feel so ill.
I see an ent specialist on thursday and I feel like he won't find anything and then I will have to wait to be referred to someone else like a neurologist and it takes forever.
I just think my head can not be this bad and not be anything there.
Sorry for the moan x

[turnthelighton]

Dont say sorry, that is what this site is for. Last year I have a headache constant for over 6 months! It was mainly on the top of my head and forehead, like you I thought BT or course because that is what us HA do. Went to the doctor so many times for check ups. One thing that helped me was an osteopath, he worked wonders. It was all coming from my neck and my posture. I still have to visit an osteopath and I still get headaches when I let things go but I know that mine is all stress. Some days I still find this hard to believe I have had a headache now for over a week, go to bed with it and wake up with it. My HA has kicked in but I know that I need to visit the osteopath to sort it out. It may be worth a try for you. Good Luck xx

[zippy]

I see an osteopath every 6-8 weeks and she is really good and it does help. But I woke up 2 months ago with full on spinning vertigo and everything has escalated from there. I see her on tuesday again.
What check up did your doctor do? Mine looked in my eyes with a light. I went to the opticians the other week to get my eyes checked and they were fine so why does my eye feel odd like I have been hit in it and pressure?

[zippy]

Nobody else ever had anything like this. I am really worried. The headaches aren't going at all and tablets Dont touch them.

[Brazil Bill]

Zippy - I genuinely feel your pain. You describe classic symptoms of tension headache and possibly a bit of tension-induced migraine as well. It is truly debilitating, it hurts and you feel there cannot be any cause other than something serious. The thing to remember is that, just because there is no serious physical cause, doesn't mean the discomfort isn't real -you describe temple pressure and earache; this kind of sensation is invariably a symptom of the muscles extending from your jaw to your skull contracting - and this is a reflex reaction to stress. It can, and often does, lead to a feeling of fullness in the ears and behind one or both eyes, dizziness, jaw pain and/or neck and back pain.

There are things you can do but it isn't a quick fix - the stress is systemic and my advice would be to change the conversation with your GP to one where you describe the continuous worry you have about your symptoms and to try and at least entertain the idea that it could be an anxiety-related disorder. You won't believe it's true to start with but just go through the motions and if you still need to, continue to report the physical sensations to your GP.

I know where you are right now (and sometimes return there) - you really can't accept that there isn't something wrong. You will be okay, but you need to get the root cause of the worry and to start to agree, even if only partially, that the panic can cause the pain, which causes the panic, which.... you get the idea. All of these iterations tighten the muscles and can make you feel like a train wreck.