Iced_diamond
03-02-13, 13:57
Health Anxiety is a real pain! I wish I could take all the years, months, days and hours which I spent worrying (pointlessly) and turn them into some productive time-spend-like maybe enjoying myself. I have been suffering from worries about my health for about 7 years, but in the last two years it reached its peak and I have become more obsessive. I work on a full time basis, but I always skip social events and generally events which mean getting together and having a good time, because I worry about picking up things from other people. Winter is the worst time for me, as everyone and his brother is ill and there are a lot of events to go to. I feel I have done well the last 4 months and have pulled myself together and done things despite my fear. A lot of the time I have been pleased to say afterwards: See, nothing bad happened. You're not ill.
But now, I feel like my luck is running out. I feel that I'll definately pick up some nasty bug or flu from someone and get ill ( which I dread!). Yesterday a friend I was due to meet asked if we could meet later as she didn't feel well. I immediately said we should cancel, but my friend insisted, so I met her. Only to be out with her for half an hour before she said she felt so awful she needed to go home. The symptoms she was describing were not nice (nausea, aches, shivers) and I really don't get why she met me, especially as she knows I suffer from HA badly (part of me wonders if it was maybe deliberate-or maybe that's mean of me-as she's had a bit of a rough ride lately). Anyway, that's not the point, now I am obsessing that I have caught something from her and feel really sloppy, depressed and anxious today! It's like I can NEVER be happy, as the threat is always there. Constantly. At first I thought well I will just live with who I am, but now I am starting to feel a bit doomed-I don't want it to be like this forever. HA is ruining my life really and has also had a negative impact on my loved ones.... I'm fed up of it. Has anyone got any inspiring stories, ideas/tips or just feels the same and wants to let off some steam?
But now, I feel like my luck is running out. I feel that I'll definately pick up some nasty bug or flu from someone and get ill ( which I dread!). Yesterday a friend I was due to meet asked if we could meet later as she didn't feel well. I immediately said we should cancel, but my friend insisted, so I met her. Only to be out with her for half an hour before she said she felt so awful she needed to go home. The symptoms she was describing were not nice (nausea, aches, shivers) and I really don't get why she met me, especially as she knows I suffer from HA badly (part of me wonders if it was maybe deliberate-or maybe that's mean of me-as she's had a bit of a rough ride lately). Anyway, that's not the point, now I am obsessing that I have caught something from her and feel really sloppy, depressed and anxious today! It's like I can NEVER be happy, as the threat is always there. Constantly. At first I thought well I will just live with who I am, but now I am starting to feel a bit doomed-I don't want it to be like this forever. HA is ruining my life really and has also had a negative impact on my loved ones.... I'm fed up of it. Has anyone got any inspiring stories, ideas/tips or just feels the same and wants to let off some steam?