lisajayne22
06-02-13, 13:43
Hi all,
Just thought I would introduce myself here. I'm Lisa, a 22 year old student.
I came across this forum today after being prescribed fluoxetine 20mg. I had a break down on Friday evening whilst at work, and decided it was time to finally seek help from my GP.
2 years ago I broke my back in a horse riding accident, an injury that I was told was career ending (I have always wanted to ride horses for a living, having dreams of opening my own business one day). As a very active person, spending 8 months in a back brace was hell on earth for me. I wasn't even allowed within 3ft of a horse, which emotionally killed me as they had always been my get away before. Thankfully, I have started riding again since (although not to the same level) but lost all of my confidence- riding and in general. Everything I once was, is gone. Social situations I fing hard, forming relationships is hard, even looking at myself in the mirror is a daily battle.
For the last 2 years I have been battling to find myself again within this person I feel I don't know. I used to be very confident, outgoing, bubbly- the life and soul of the party. And now I am very withdrawn, agitated, depressed and detached from the world. Some days, I wish I could have another serious accident, just so I can have a break and rest for a while. I do not feel suicidal at all, and because of those types of thoughts I feel like I'm going insane.
I have taken my first tablet today, and from reading stories on here I know it's going to be a roller coaster for me over the next few months. I just hope I can find myself again through the help of this forum and taking this medication. I don't want to feel trapped within my own body, or held down by this person who isn't me any more.
I just want to get better :weep:
Lisa x
Just thought I would introduce myself here. I'm Lisa, a 22 year old student.
I came across this forum today after being prescribed fluoxetine 20mg. I had a break down on Friday evening whilst at work, and decided it was time to finally seek help from my GP.
2 years ago I broke my back in a horse riding accident, an injury that I was told was career ending (I have always wanted to ride horses for a living, having dreams of opening my own business one day). As a very active person, spending 8 months in a back brace was hell on earth for me. I wasn't even allowed within 3ft of a horse, which emotionally killed me as they had always been my get away before. Thankfully, I have started riding again since (although not to the same level) but lost all of my confidence- riding and in general. Everything I once was, is gone. Social situations I fing hard, forming relationships is hard, even looking at myself in the mirror is a daily battle.
For the last 2 years I have been battling to find myself again within this person I feel I don't know. I used to be very confident, outgoing, bubbly- the life and soul of the party. And now I am very withdrawn, agitated, depressed and detached from the world. Some days, I wish I could have another serious accident, just so I can have a break and rest for a while. I do not feel suicidal at all, and because of those types of thoughts I feel like I'm going insane.
I have taken my first tablet today, and from reading stories on here I know it's going to be a roller coaster for me over the next few months. I just hope I can find myself again through the help of this forum and taking this medication. I don't want to feel trapped within my own body, or held down by this person who isn't me any more.
I just want to get better :weep:
Lisa x