Buby
16-06-04, 00:15
um...i aint sure weva this topic as been covered or not......
but lately, ive been punhcin myself, on my arms and legs, is this a form of self-abusing? cos, im so frustrated lately, cos i fort me pa's had gone and ive had to in the last week, which has brought mt spirits down. and my mums goin on bout how skint we r then wastin our money, our dad is alwyz at work and i cant chat to my sis cos shes not an understandin persn and my bruvs r at uni and at work and ave both moved out. my mate might have cancer so i aint gonna make her worry bout summit else.
ive asked to see my school consellor agen, which i think is a gd idea but wen i had cpnsellin dun few months ago it dint work or help me. but ive tried punchin pillows...........and i was even ina lil fight today with a ''mate'', she punched me yesterday so i punched her on the arm and she punched me on my chest and nearly winded me cos she got my...ahem....um..breast (sorri) and so i punched her on her back really hard and went for her face but i dint. i aint noprmally spiteful or nasty but my frustration is takin ova and its makin my mates hate me, im so quiet and violent i dont no wot to do.
ive asked my dad for a punch bag, but i doubt hell get me 1. i jst dont no wot else to do :(
and i really nearly a hug....ave ne of u been so lonely and in so much need of a hug but u wont hug ne1 unless theyre ur mates? cos i wont hug my mum or dad but ill hug a few of my mates, but wot i really want is to hug a lad....does tht sound a bit selfish and silly?
neway i betta go..getttin kinda long xxx mwah xxx Rach xxx
but lately, ive been punhcin myself, on my arms and legs, is this a form of self-abusing? cos, im so frustrated lately, cos i fort me pa's had gone and ive had to in the last week, which has brought mt spirits down. and my mums goin on bout how skint we r then wastin our money, our dad is alwyz at work and i cant chat to my sis cos shes not an understandin persn and my bruvs r at uni and at work and ave both moved out. my mate might have cancer so i aint gonna make her worry bout summit else.
ive asked to see my school consellor agen, which i think is a gd idea but wen i had cpnsellin dun few months ago it dint work or help me. but ive tried punchin pillows...........and i was even ina lil fight today with a ''mate'', she punched me yesterday so i punched her on the arm and she punched me on my chest and nearly winded me cos she got my...ahem....um..breast (sorri) and so i punched her on her back really hard and went for her face but i dint. i aint noprmally spiteful or nasty but my frustration is takin ova and its makin my mates hate me, im so quiet and violent i dont no wot to do.
ive asked my dad for a punch bag, but i doubt hell get me 1. i jst dont no wot else to do :(
and i really nearly a hug....ave ne of u been so lonely and in so much need of a hug but u wont hug ne1 unless theyre ur mates? cos i wont hug my mum or dad but ill hug a few of my mates, but wot i really want is to hug a lad....does tht sound a bit selfish and silly?
neway i betta go..getttin kinda long xxx mwah xxx Rach xxx