amy.x.
08-02-13, 12:57
hi everyone,
To be honest i dont know where to start or what to say but i guess im here because i feel i have nowhere left/else to turn. i feel so alone. the last time i felt this way i did something very silly and i dont want to get to that point again.
i have suffered from anxiety as a child and all throughout my life up until this present day. at first it was jst the anxiety but then came the panic attacks, avoidance, eating disorder & depression. some how i managed to suppress/hide all these things by having a successful, highly pressured career.. along with a part time accountancy degree in the evenings and many nights out drinking with work colleagues etc. i had many friends & was always in a relationship (albeit i realise these were not always 'healthy').
up until 2 years ago jst after finishing my degree where i found myself having panic attacks daily, feeling so low i could not get out of bed, i stopped eating, isolated myself from friends as i didnt understand what was happening to me.
to cut a long story short i ended up being diagnosed as having had a nervous breakdown & later by a psychiatrist severe anxiety & major depressive disorder along with an eating disorder.
i have tried almost everything in the book to combat my problems from medication to therapy and still i find myself here today anxious, panicky, alone and isolated & scared to even go out of my own home.
The only thing i have/had left in me is hope but even that is fading, im so tired of fighting jst to get through a day. i cant remember the last time i was happy, if i ever really have been even but i jst feel that what i have to go through is not a life but is a torture.
so sorry for the downbeat nature of this post but i would really appreciate it if someone could help me in some/any way at all.
thanks
Amy x
To be honest i dont know where to start or what to say but i guess im here because i feel i have nowhere left/else to turn. i feel so alone. the last time i felt this way i did something very silly and i dont want to get to that point again.
i have suffered from anxiety as a child and all throughout my life up until this present day. at first it was jst the anxiety but then came the panic attacks, avoidance, eating disorder & depression. some how i managed to suppress/hide all these things by having a successful, highly pressured career.. along with a part time accountancy degree in the evenings and many nights out drinking with work colleagues etc. i had many friends & was always in a relationship (albeit i realise these were not always 'healthy').
up until 2 years ago jst after finishing my degree where i found myself having panic attacks daily, feeling so low i could not get out of bed, i stopped eating, isolated myself from friends as i didnt understand what was happening to me.
to cut a long story short i ended up being diagnosed as having had a nervous breakdown & later by a psychiatrist severe anxiety & major depressive disorder along with an eating disorder.
i have tried almost everything in the book to combat my problems from medication to therapy and still i find myself here today anxious, panicky, alone and isolated & scared to even go out of my own home.
The only thing i have/had left in me is hope but even that is fading, im so tired of fighting jst to get through a day. i cant remember the last time i was happy, if i ever really have been even but i jst feel that what i have to go through is not a life but is a torture.
so sorry for the downbeat nature of this post but i would really appreciate it if someone could help me in some/any way at all.
thanks
Amy x