hannah26
10-02-13, 18:48
Hello,
Ok so I've had what I thought was derealisation/depersonalization for about two months now but over the last few days my feelings and thoughts seem different and now I'm scared that it might not be dp/dr.
If I list a few of my symptoms would it be possible for someone to just look through them and tell me what you think. I know none or most of us aren't medical proffessionals but just some advice or anything would be lovely.
Ok so my list goes like this>
I'm scared of the world, walking on it because it feels weird. When I go outside it freaks me out badly, and I feel like I'm high up and scared of heights.
Things don't look real to me, even my own self, I'm scared that it will all become to real and freak me out.
I'm scared of looking at wide views.
I have recurring horrible thoughts about how big the world is and how's its floating in space.
I'm scared of planes.
I'm scared it will never stop and I'll be like this forever and I will eventually lose all control of myself and my mind and end up dying or in a mental hospital.
I feel in my mind that even if people told me it was all real I wouldn't believe them even though that's never happened.
I feel like I can't control my arms or legs and will become locked in or paralysed.
I'm just really scared of everything at the moment, being alone, walking outside by myself, night-time, snow, rain, storms, the dark everything.
I'm scared to eat suger or sweeteners incase they trigger a panic attack or horrible thoughts.
I'm scared I will forget my family and friends and be alone and crazy.
Does this sound normal, well not normal because it isn't but normal for dp/dr and anxiety. I can't shake no matter how calm I am the thoughts are always always there, I know I should ignore but when your scared of your surroundings that's very hard to do.
I am on Propranolol, I came of for two days then went back on them could it be because of that. I want a normal life, I have interviews and things comuing up and I really want a job and I'm worried this will hold me back. What is happening to me. I feel like my life is over.
I'm sorry for the ridiculously long post and my moaning.
I'm ashamed of myself sometimes, I'm alive, have loving family, a roof over my head and have good health so what am I moaning about. But living my life in fear has gone on for so long now I'm exhausted and I've had enough. I can't live the rest of my life like this can I. The Dr never seems to understand I've had 5 cbt lessons and I try to stick with them but they've stopped now!! What else can I do!!
Sorry again
Lots of hugs, thanks and love to you all Hannah x x x
Ok so I've had what I thought was derealisation/depersonalization for about two months now but over the last few days my feelings and thoughts seem different and now I'm scared that it might not be dp/dr.
If I list a few of my symptoms would it be possible for someone to just look through them and tell me what you think. I know none or most of us aren't medical proffessionals but just some advice or anything would be lovely.
Ok so my list goes like this>
I'm scared of the world, walking on it because it feels weird. When I go outside it freaks me out badly, and I feel like I'm high up and scared of heights.
Things don't look real to me, even my own self, I'm scared that it will all become to real and freak me out.
I'm scared of looking at wide views.
I have recurring horrible thoughts about how big the world is and how's its floating in space.
I'm scared of planes.
I'm scared it will never stop and I'll be like this forever and I will eventually lose all control of myself and my mind and end up dying or in a mental hospital.
I feel in my mind that even if people told me it was all real I wouldn't believe them even though that's never happened.
I feel like I can't control my arms or legs and will become locked in or paralysed.
I'm just really scared of everything at the moment, being alone, walking outside by myself, night-time, snow, rain, storms, the dark everything.
I'm scared to eat suger or sweeteners incase they trigger a panic attack or horrible thoughts.
I'm scared I will forget my family and friends and be alone and crazy.
Does this sound normal, well not normal because it isn't but normal for dp/dr and anxiety. I can't shake no matter how calm I am the thoughts are always always there, I know I should ignore but when your scared of your surroundings that's very hard to do.
I am on Propranolol, I came of for two days then went back on them could it be because of that. I want a normal life, I have interviews and things comuing up and I really want a job and I'm worried this will hold me back. What is happening to me. I feel like my life is over.
I'm sorry for the ridiculously long post and my moaning.
I'm ashamed of myself sometimes, I'm alive, have loving family, a roof over my head and have good health so what am I moaning about. But living my life in fear has gone on for so long now I'm exhausted and I've had enough. I can't live the rest of my life like this can I. The Dr never seems to understand I've had 5 cbt lessons and I try to stick with them but they've stopped now!! What else can I do!!
Sorry again
Lots of hugs, thanks and love to you all Hannah x x x