fabio27
18-02-13, 18:52
I really dont know where to start i guess by saying im a married 31 yr old male and dad of 2, when I was 16 i smoked cannabis until I was 21 which I gave up because it made me have a feeling of not being able to breath ect I have never recovered from these 'attacks' actually got worse
forgive me for my long winded post i really want to get this off my chest i can only hope someone offers me advice
my big problem is despite being to hospital over the last 10 years countless times i dont believe its caused by panic attacks and have been told its not my heart its in my head I have had ECG'S bloodwork x-rays treadmill tests all normal except sinus bradycardia once on an ECG and diagnosed with IBS and spastic colon
I really am not living at the moment I have been a stay at home dad for 5 years because I cannot hold a job because I have these attacks at work and have been taken away in ambulances before.I do not work out I am very sedentary if im not doing something for my daughter i just dont work out because they can bring on the attacks i suffer sometimes it doesnt go for days on end.
I have chest pains all over and sometimes sudden weird pains like my hearts being crushed in someones hands, I always feel lethargic especially the last week or so I feel like i have been drugged no energy at all my arms feel dead.i guess I should list what I feel
out of breath
chest pains
lethargic
heart feels like its jumping around but is beating normally when my wife listens to it
pain in left arm
pain in left fingers
pain between shoulder blades
feeling like being strangled or drowning if that makes sense like suffocating
sudden sharp stinging neck pains
calf pains when walking or after walking
leg pains
I am unsure if some of these are due to my fitness levels being so bad since i dont move and havent for years, my thing is I am terrified im going to have a heart attack and im being given warning signs like i finally went swimming with my kids last week after feeling lethargic really badly and having these facial flushes and warm feeling all over
i was having a good time working out when suddenly i got a very very strange numb pain in the center of chest that radiatiated near my heart i freaked out but kept cool if front of my children I felt like it was caused my exercising because i stopped and it passed but came back when i moved again
I was told i had high cholesterol in 2010 but i have now got this down to normal again, when i found out i was convinced my arterys are blocked from it being high and maybe i have heart disease i have only just giving u cigarettes I just cannot accept this is panic attacks MY ANXIETY is caused by my symptoms .
I get so aggressive when i get these out of frustration I just want to be normal feel normal have a good life but every time i feel OK i try enjoy myself it happens and im back to square one
all these doctors say im fine but I cannot accept it they wont refer me saying this has gone on too long and i dont need it.What the hell am i going to do ...i really dont want to take meds ..because i believe i havent got anxiety? its like if i knew it was anxiety for a fact and not heart related ect i would be cured!! because id know its only anxiety why worry
i check my blood pressure alot (123/79 most times or 130-152/87 when i have these attacks or symptoms badly and panic) I take asprins daily in case i suffer a heart attack, people tell me to work out but working out again causes them to come on.
I also cannot tolerate heat by the sun in summer or in our home it makes me have a really unable to breath feeling.If someone dies in the news or in my life i obsess to finding out if its a heart attack because I want to prove to myself it can happen even tho im 31 it doesnt matter which i accept it very morbid
I feel like i have left so much out to write but I guess i want someone to not take one look at this post and look away as its too long so i will leave it there..please please if you have 5 minutes of time or have advice anything can you reply and tell me what am i going to do? how can i live i need a job i need to support my kids i need to live and smile again
forgive me for my long winded post i really want to get this off my chest i can only hope someone offers me advice
my big problem is despite being to hospital over the last 10 years countless times i dont believe its caused by panic attacks and have been told its not my heart its in my head I have had ECG'S bloodwork x-rays treadmill tests all normal except sinus bradycardia once on an ECG and diagnosed with IBS and spastic colon
I really am not living at the moment I have been a stay at home dad for 5 years because I cannot hold a job because I have these attacks at work and have been taken away in ambulances before.I do not work out I am very sedentary if im not doing something for my daughter i just dont work out because they can bring on the attacks i suffer sometimes it doesnt go for days on end.
I have chest pains all over and sometimes sudden weird pains like my hearts being crushed in someones hands, I always feel lethargic especially the last week or so I feel like i have been drugged no energy at all my arms feel dead.i guess I should list what I feel
out of breath
chest pains
lethargic
heart feels like its jumping around but is beating normally when my wife listens to it
pain in left arm
pain in left fingers
pain between shoulder blades
feeling like being strangled or drowning if that makes sense like suffocating
sudden sharp stinging neck pains
calf pains when walking or after walking
leg pains
I am unsure if some of these are due to my fitness levels being so bad since i dont move and havent for years, my thing is I am terrified im going to have a heart attack and im being given warning signs like i finally went swimming with my kids last week after feeling lethargic really badly and having these facial flushes and warm feeling all over
i was having a good time working out when suddenly i got a very very strange numb pain in the center of chest that radiatiated near my heart i freaked out but kept cool if front of my children I felt like it was caused my exercising because i stopped and it passed but came back when i moved again
I was told i had high cholesterol in 2010 but i have now got this down to normal again, when i found out i was convinced my arterys are blocked from it being high and maybe i have heart disease i have only just giving u cigarettes I just cannot accept this is panic attacks MY ANXIETY is caused by my symptoms .
I get so aggressive when i get these out of frustration I just want to be normal feel normal have a good life but every time i feel OK i try enjoy myself it happens and im back to square one
all these doctors say im fine but I cannot accept it they wont refer me saying this has gone on too long and i dont need it.What the hell am i going to do ...i really dont want to take meds ..because i believe i havent got anxiety? its like if i knew it was anxiety for a fact and not heart related ect i would be cured!! because id know its only anxiety why worry
i check my blood pressure alot (123/79 most times or 130-152/87 when i have these attacks or symptoms badly and panic) I take asprins daily in case i suffer a heart attack, people tell me to work out but working out again causes them to come on.
I also cannot tolerate heat by the sun in summer or in our home it makes me have a really unable to breath feeling.If someone dies in the news or in my life i obsess to finding out if its a heart attack because I want to prove to myself it can happen even tho im 31 it doesnt matter which i accept it very morbid
I feel like i have left so much out to write but I guess i want someone to not take one look at this post and look away as its too long so i will leave it there..please please if you have 5 minutes of time or have advice anything can you reply and tell me what am i going to do? how can i live i need a job i need to support my kids i need to live and smile again