jayjoe18
18-02-13, 18:55
Hi all, I've posted briefly about this the other day but I need some help.
I received my appointment letter on Saturday morning for my first CBT session, the appointment is this Thursday!!
The minute I saw the letter I just knew what it was about and my heart sank, I felt sick. I've been so worried ever since and have had really awful stomach cramps/problems that I've never had before, something I think has been caused by the stress of the letter. I was so upset about the letter that on Saturday I actually burst out crying, I haven't cried about my anxiety in a long time but then again I've tried not to think about it.
I've been in the comfort and safety of my home now for the past 2 years since I quit college and now I'm so scared to go back out and start something like this again (I've done CBT in the past, it lasted well over a year). I suppose I've buried my head in the sand.
I've always got nervous about things days/weeks before the event but I've never had problems with my bowels like I have this weekend which just makes my anxiety about going ten times worse! Last time I went to CBT I did have other stuff going on like school and potentially college but now I've not done anything for 2 years it just feels too much for me to handle. Plus it's now with the adult services that I've never dealt with (all my therapy has happened as a teenager so with child services).
I guess I'm just looking for help, I really don't think I can face it this time.
I've been toying with the idea of medication and even though I'm terrified of this option I think it's what I need to keep me calm enough to deal with therapy and to keep my physical symptoms at bay.
I'm thinking of cancelling the appointment and going back to my GP to discuss this, but I'm terrified of either option.
I just don't know what to do anymore, I can't handle this fear :(
I received my appointment letter on Saturday morning for my first CBT session, the appointment is this Thursday!!
The minute I saw the letter I just knew what it was about and my heart sank, I felt sick. I've been so worried ever since and have had really awful stomach cramps/problems that I've never had before, something I think has been caused by the stress of the letter. I was so upset about the letter that on Saturday I actually burst out crying, I haven't cried about my anxiety in a long time but then again I've tried not to think about it.
I've been in the comfort and safety of my home now for the past 2 years since I quit college and now I'm so scared to go back out and start something like this again (I've done CBT in the past, it lasted well over a year). I suppose I've buried my head in the sand.
I've always got nervous about things days/weeks before the event but I've never had problems with my bowels like I have this weekend which just makes my anxiety about going ten times worse! Last time I went to CBT I did have other stuff going on like school and potentially college but now I've not done anything for 2 years it just feels too much for me to handle. Plus it's now with the adult services that I've never dealt with (all my therapy has happened as a teenager so with child services).
I guess I'm just looking for help, I really don't think I can face it this time.
I've been toying with the idea of medication and even though I'm terrified of this option I think it's what I need to keep me calm enough to deal with therapy and to keep my physical symptoms at bay.
I'm thinking of cancelling the appointment and going back to my GP to discuss this, but I'm terrified of either option.
I just don't know what to do anymore, I can't handle this fear :(