snoopy38
20-02-13, 11:32
Hi everyone, I haven't posted for a while and it's been great to see how people have moved on and improved since I was last on.
I have been back in work for 6 weeks now, 3 of these full time. I have had my ups and downs but mostly managed ok. I have even enjoyed it on occasion! :-) I have kept to my promise of leaving earlier to pick my daughter up each day and have greatly reduced my workload at home. Basically, I have got my old life back, give or take the odd blip - something I thought would never happen a few months ago.
Everything had been going well UNTIL I now have a week off. Work had always been my avoidance strategy and now I'm off with lots of time on my hands and loads of association (it was during my last holiday from work that my episode started). I find myself panicking that I'm worrying again, looking out for signs that it is coming back but worried incase it does. The tightness in my throat hadn't gone away but it is as bad as ever. I just want to move on properly and enjoy my time off with my kids, but instead I'm finding myself wishing the days away until I can get back to work and busy myself again.
I can't even go too far for days out as our little pup was run over a couple of weeks ago and she needs us around as she's lost a leg :-(
I would really appreciate any support. Getting back on track is so hard, but it seems that staying there is just as hard.
I have been back in work for 6 weeks now, 3 of these full time. I have had my ups and downs but mostly managed ok. I have even enjoyed it on occasion! :-) I have kept to my promise of leaving earlier to pick my daughter up each day and have greatly reduced my workload at home. Basically, I have got my old life back, give or take the odd blip - something I thought would never happen a few months ago.
Everything had been going well UNTIL I now have a week off. Work had always been my avoidance strategy and now I'm off with lots of time on my hands and loads of association (it was during my last holiday from work that my episode started). I find myself panicking that I'm worrying again, looking out for signs that it is coming back but worried incase it does. The tightness in my throat hadn't gone away but it is as bad as ever. I just want to move on properly and enjoy my time off with my kids, but instead I'm finding myself wishing the days away until I can get back to work and busy myself again.
I can't even go too far for days out as our little pup was run over a couple of weeks ago and she needs us around as she's lost a leg :-(
I would really appreciate any support. Getting back on track is so hard, but it seems that staying there is just as hard.