cazzy
21-02-13, 17:55
Braving up by introducing myself ,its been on my mind the last 2 days , to post another thread, as 1 i posted yesterday i panicked and removed ..Need to say what a great site and thank you and others out there supporting this and hopefully i can get my mind back on track.
At moment im cutting along story short to the straw.
I been suffering with Ocd/Anxiety/Depression over 15 years , iv conquered the Ocd ...so i know theres hope for others, the fear of checking things,looking through empty toilet rolls, checking cooker on off ,tearing tags of clothes,turning them inside/out ,not putting pen to paper,the list can go on i was possesed in checking and couldnt focus what i was looking for , sounds crazy i know but this what happened to me ...:wacko: and thankfully im over it ...HOW ????
Then Bang ! my hubby went to prison and i had to face up to things for sake of my kids ...prozaced up to 60mg and 15-20mg of diazepam to cope with everything i pulled through , with help of dreaded alcohol ,hospatalized with pancreatis, gallstones ,stomach ulcers, i continued to battle, got over the OCD to face THAT above . seemed to got rid of OCD, then alcohol / diazepam i become addicted too , but now over the alcohol and to this day stuck with the prozac and withdrawal of diazepam.
Anyways , im not coping again with Anxiety, i havent taken a valium for 17 days after 4yrs on high dose then reducing them in November to nothing,but having to take emergency supplies up until 17days ago ...After 5 years being on the wonder drug , doctor and pyschiatrist has weaned and not prescribing nomore, thinking the idea i cant cope without them, im craving them , i know the good effects of taking 1, holding back is the hardest , 17 days none , but last 4 days have been dreadfull ,waking up sweating ,panicking,shaking, number 2s constantly ,really on urge to take 1 to get rid of this ILL feeling, crisis team stopped me today from taking any, her positive vibe of stop the rational thinking and focus on HERE AND NOW ...Here i was sitting with her wanting a tablet and Now it been 17 days since i last took 1 , glad i havent taken 1 as i think 17 days wasted and got to start over another 17days ...
Anyone else feel this pain im not coping to well , sorry im rabbiting ,im nervous as heck x
At moment im cutting along story short to the straw.
I been suffering with Ocd/Anxiety/Depression over 15 years , iv conquered the Ocd ...so i know theres hope for others, the fear of checking things,looking through empty toilet rolls, checking cooker on off ,tearing tags of clothes,turning them inside/out ,not putting pen to paper,the list can go on i was possesed in checking and couldnt focus what i was looking for , sounds crazy i know but this what happened to me ...:wacko: and thankfully im over it ...HOW ????
Then Bang ! my hubby went to prison and i had to face up to things for sake of my kids ...prozaced up to 60mg and 15-20mg of diazepam to cope with everything i pulled through , with help of dreaded alcohol ,hospatalized with pancreatis, gallstones ,stomach ulcers, i continued to battle, got over the OCD to face THAT above . seemed to got rid of OCD, then alcohol / diazepam i become addicted too , but now over the alcohol and to this day stuck with the prozac and withdrawal of diazepam.
Anyways , im not coping again with Anxiety, i havent taken a valium for 17 days after 4yrs on high dose then reducing them in November to nothing,but having to take emergency supplies up until 17days ago ...After 5 years being on the wonder drug , doctor and pyschiatrist has weaned and not prescribing nomore, thinking the idea i cant cope without them, im craving them , i know the good effects of taking 1, holding back is the hardest , 17 days none , but last 4 days have been dreadfull ,waking up sweating ,panicking,shaking, number 2s constantly ,really on urge to take 1 to get rid of this ILL feeling, crisis team stopped me today from taking any, her positive vibe of stop the rational thinking and focus on HERE AND NOW ...Here i was sitting with her wanting a tablet and Now it been 17 days since i last took 1 , glad i havent taken 1 as i think 17 days wasted and got to start over another 17days ...
Anyone else feel this pain im not coping to well , sorry im rabbiting ,im nervous as heck x