Bosslady
22-02-13, 13:10
Hello Everyone.
This is my story. I am stressed, a new concept to me. I have always seen myself as a strong person, helping others, my patients, family, friends. I am excellent at helping others. I receive endless phonecalls from friends off loading and I am ok with this.....up until a few days ago when the walls just closed in on me with no warning signs.
I found myself crying like a child and that folks is the start of my recovery. The moment I accepted, something is wrong, I am not superhuman, i need to really look after myself here. But I am having difficutly accepting that this is just me now, I have to look after me.
On reflection. Had not slept for months, stopped socialising (it just felt exhausting) felt anxious, avoiding stressful situations, forgetful, over eating then under eating, feelings of worthlessness, tight chest, anxious. And i had initally put this down to a stressful period at work, kept teling myself it was just pressure, this will pass.
So i find myself at the GP surgery,signed off work and commenced on Citalopram in line with online CBT. The ironary is I am anxious about taking medciation, I have been pondeing on it today and thus my anxiety level have increased, i feel confused, unsure of what to do. But I acknowledge that there is a problem and I am the only one who can fix it. So here goes......
Thanks for reading
This is my story. I am stressed, a new concept to me. I have always seen myself as a strong person, helping others, my patients, family, friends. I am excellent at helping others. I receive endless phonecalls from friends off loading and I am ok with this.....up until a few days ago when the walls just closed in on me with no warning signs.
I found myself crying like a child and that folks is the start of my recovery. The moment I accepted, something is wrong, I am not superhuman, i need to really look after myself here. But I am having difficutly accepting that this is just me now, I have to look after me.
On reflection. Had not slept for months, stopped socialising (it just felt exhausting) felt anxious, avoiding stressful situations, forgetful, over eating then under eating, feelings of worthlessness, tight chest, anxious. And i had initally put this down to a stressful period at work, kept teling myself it was just pressure, this will pass.
So i find myself at the GP surgery,signed off work and commenced on Citalopram in line with online CBT. The ironary is I am anxious about taking medciation, I have been pondeing on it today and thus my anxiety level have increased, i feel confused, unsure of what to do. But I acknowledge that there is a problem and I am the only one who can fix it. So here goes......
Thanks for reading