Silly Blonde
08-09-06, 13:22
I've been feeling really terrible this last week - feeling sick with diarrhoea - worse when I wake up. And have been having the usual low down tummy ache.
You may remember from my earlier posts that I had a failed attempt to quit my mirtazapine. I was on 45mg, then dropped to 30mg, to 15mg and then stopped too suddenly. I made the decision to retake 15mg, but when I saw my psych he told me to up them to 30mg.
I have been trying to "manage" on 15mg, as I felt I would be "letting myself down" if I went up to 30mg again, but as I'm feeling soooooo ill, am considering upping to 30mg tonight. I am thinking, so what, if I need em so be it.
I still cannot believe how bad I feel. Feel like I have a lead weight tied round my middle with really horrible heavy feeling around my tummy and lower back. And I really feel "ill", ie tired, sick, and generally unwell.
What do you guys think??? Why am I worrying about increasing if that may make me feel better?? I think its because if it doesn't make me feel better, then I'll start thinking that there is something physically wrong with me.
My acupuncture no longer seems to be helping, and so I am back in the depths of despair, convinced 100% that I have some form of the C word. Surely "emotional" things can't make me feel this ill!!!????? I really feel like I'm on my last legs!!
Sorry for the extra-long rant, just don't know whether I'm coming or going :(
SBxx
You may remember from my earlier posts that I had a failed attempt to quit my mirtazapine. I was on 45mg, then dropped to 30mg, to 15mg and then stopped too suddenly. I made the decision to retake 15mg, but when I saw my psych he told me to up them to 30mg.
I have been trying to "manage" on 15mg, as I felt I would be "letting myself down" if I went up to 30mg again, but as I'm feeling soooooo ill, am considering upping to 30mg tonight. I am thinking, so what, if I need em so be it.
I still cannot believe how bad I feel. Feel like I have a lead weight tied round my middle with really horrible heavy feeling around my tummy and lower back. And I really feel "ill", ie tired, sick, and generally unwell.
What do you guys think??? Why am I worrying about increasing if that may make me feel better?? I think its because if it doesn't make me feel better, then I'll start thinking that there is something physically wrong with me.
My acupuncture no longer seems to be helping, and so I am back in the depths of despair, convinced 100% that I have some form of the C word. Surely "emotional" things can't make me feel this ill!!!????? I really feel like I'm on my last legs!!
Sorry for the extra-long rant, just don't know whether I'm coming or going :(
SBxx