Trixie
25-02-13, 16:06
About two weeks ago today I had a mammogram and there on the monitor (which the radiographer had for some reason pointing in my direction) I could see my boob with a white pea shape/size object I mentioned it to the radiographer and she went red and turned the monitor away. For 11 days I worried myself silly over (it I had a letter in the following Thursday to say my boobs were cancer free) worried about my two grown up children who still live at home (I am the carer to one).
Anyway this Saturday my daughter and I were watching something on the TV when all of a sudden a dark cloud came over me and I felt terrible. The next day I was the same, with thousands of butterflies in my stomach and crying all the time and feeling as if I just wanted to throw everything in the house away (?) and also a feeling that I was going to vomit.
The focus of my depression is based on my two children and the fear that if I was to die I wouldn't see them again. I have had this before a few years ago and was put on Cipralex. I am due to go to the doctors soon and hopefully she will give me something to help me feel normal again.
The children's father is dead.
Has anyone else felt like this?
Anyway this Saturday my daughter and I were watching something on the TV when all of a sudden a dark cloud came over me and I felt terrible. The next day I was the same, with thousands of butterflies in my stomach and crying all the time and feeling as if I just wanted to throw everything in the house away (?) and also a feeling that I was going to vomit.
The focus of my depression is based on my two children and the fear that if I was to die I wouldn't see them again. I have had this before a few years ago and was put on Cipralex. I am due to go to the doctors soon and hopefully she will give me something to help me feel normal again.
The children's father is dead.
Has anyone else felt like this?