littlevoice
04-03-13, 01:35
Hi everyone I am Littlevoice.
I have been paralyzed by fear related to AVPD since I was 13. It started when I started to develop skin problems and was made worse after a very bad experience at school when I was bullied during a fire drill. These kids kept coming up and screaming in my face because I looked like a freak to them. I didn't defend myself and they kept on at me.
It hasn't helped that I was born naturally shy in the first place.
I stopped going to school and soon after stopped going out entirely. My childhood was over. I have spent years in and out of therapy but it didn't change anything.
I've also tried to apply for jobs and college courses but always ended up bottling out. Now I'm finally starting to fight against it, but its incredibly difficult. Every time I try and do something i get an overwhelming urge to run.
I have been paralyzed by fear related to AVPD since I was 13. It started when I started to develop skin problems and was made worse after a very bad experience at school when I was bullied during a fire drill. These kids kept coming up and screaming in my face because I looked like a freak to them. I didn't defend myself and they kept on at me.
It hasn't helped that I was born naturally shy in the first place.
I stopped going to school and soon after stopped going out entirely. My childhood was over. I have spent years in and out of therapy but it didn't change anything.
I've also tried to apply for jobs and college courses but always ended up bottling out. Now I'm finally starting to fight against it, but its incredibly difficult. Every time I try and do something i get an overwhelming urge to run.