Sunshine77
04-03-13, 18:34
Hi All
Hoping for some advice on something that's troubling me a bit.
The story so far...
After having an anxiety/panic breakdown in early Jan I was off work for 6 weeks. Tried to go back on a phased return on 19th Feb, managed 6 days, got worse every day till I was back almost where I started. Quit my job last Tuesday on the grounds of my health.
So...
Since I quit I have felt literally lighter. Some of the comments I have had in the last week: "You look like a different person", "You've got the sparkle back in your eyes" etc. Certainly I've felt more like the old me than I have done for a while. Actually I've realised how long I was ill for prior to the breakdown!
However. I am still very anxious in the morning, sleeping better but not great, edgy/jumpy at anything unexpected and really having to pace myself in terms of dealing with bills and other tasks.
Financially I can't afford not to work for very long, but I don't actually feel well enough to work yet, especially given last week's work situation. But, I don't feel anything like as ill as I did 2 months ago.
I have been told I can get ESA if I go back to the docs and get a note. But I feel like a bit of a fraud doing that, because I don't feel that bad any more. But then again I know that's mainly because I'm not having to deal with the stress of working!
That is my dilemma. Do I get a doctors note and in fact would I even get one?! Looking at myself in the mirror I don't look half as bad as I did when I had a sick note before - what if she thinks I'm trying it on?
Or do I try and get some temping straight away?
Sorry for the length of this post - it's really bothering me and I want honest opinions from all you lovely people please :)
:hugs: to all
Hoping for some advice on something that's troubling me a bit.
The story so far...
After having an anxiety/panic breakdown in early Jan I was off work for 6 weeks. Tried to go back on a phased return on 19th Feb, managed 6 days, got worse every day till I was back almost where I started. Quit my job last Tuesday on the grounds of my health.
So...
Since I quit I have felt literally lighter. Some of the comments I have had in the last week: "You look like a different person", "You've got the sparkle back in your eyes" etc. Certainly I've felt more like the old me than I have done for a while. Actually I've realised how long I was ill for prior to the breakdown!
However. I am still very anxious in the morning, sleeping better but not great, edgy/jumpy at anything unexpected and really having to pace myself in terms of dealing with bills and other tasks.
Financially I can't afford not to work for very long, but I don't actually feel well enough to work yet, especially given last week's work situation. But, I don't feel anything like as ill as I did 2 months ago.
I have been told I can get ESA if I go back to the docs and get a note. But I feel like a bit of a fraud doing that, because I don't feel that bad any more. But then again I know that's mainly because I'm not having to deal with the stress of working!
That is my dilemma. Do I get a doctors note and in fact would I even get one?! Looking at myself in the mirror I don't look half as bad as I did when I had a sick note before - what if she thinks I'm trying it on?
Or do I try and get some temping straight away?
Sorry for the length of this post - it's really bothering me and I want honest opinions from all you lovely people please :)
:hugs: to all