Star15
07-03-13, 19:21
I am really struggling with anxiety at the moment. I posted on here a short while ago as I had some blood come up in my phlegm a couple of times when I had a cold, and have since been to the doc who has referred me to a respitory specialist, mainly because this is the only way that I can know conclusively that all is okay- she is not worried about this symptom at all. I have since had this pre-occupation with my throat. I have been constantly looking at it in the mirror and touching the back of my throat as I can't stop worrying. Through this I have discovered a small lump above my right tonsil in the arch bit which I don't have on the other side. I am so scared this may be cancer and don't know how to relieve this worry. I have another doctors appointment on Tuesday so I can get her to have a look at my throat. In the mean time I can't stop worrying and constantly looking at and touching this lump. I am trying not to as I know this will cause irritation but its like something takes over and I have no control. I am especially worried as I used to smoke quite a bit and still do occasionally although I know I shouldn't. I am 29 and so scared that I have given myself a horrible illness by smoking. I feel constantly anxious and don't know where to turn. When I google it cancer is the first thing that comes up. Does anyone have experience of this kind of thing? Has anyone else had anything similar? Any kind words would be so much appreciated as I can't cope with this anxiety. I am so scared. Please help.