steamdriven
18-03-13, 02:02
Hey. I'm kinda new here. I've been a perpetual sufferer of overwhelming anxiety, but my current situation is driving it up the wall. I've finally gotten out of a about three years of depression and finally managed to get a real job. It's a good one, I'm being respected at work for what feels like the first time ever and probably is. I'm in a place I actually want to be.
Only thing is that I still have major anxiety problems, it blew up in my face at university but I just plowed though it by drinking alone every night of the week and then pulling all nighters before essay deadlines. But now I need to work effectively and consistently. And I can't sleep, I've had chronic insomnia. Not just the "I've slept six hours", it's "I haven't slept more than four hours a night all week, usually not at all". More than once I've quite objectively felt that I'd rather commit suicide than live like this for the rest of my life.
I've been on zopiclone for as long as is recommended, and that at least helped me get a night's sleep. Now they've moved me onto Mirtazapene. I'm praying that's going to kick in soon.
I'm hoping that finding a community will at least help me feel not alone.
Only thing is that I still have major anxiety problems, it blew up in my face at university but I just plowed though it by drinking alone every night of the week and then pulling all nighters before essay deadlines. But now I need to work effectively and consistently. And I can't sleep, I've had chronic insomnia. Not just the "I've slept six hours", it's "I haven't slept more than four hours a night all week, usually not at all". More than once I've quite objectively felt that I'd rather commit suicide than live like this for the rest of my life.
I've been on zopiclone for as long as is recommended, and that at least helped me get a night's sleep. Now they've moved me onto Mirtazapene. I'm praying that's going to kick in soon.
I'm hoping that finding a community will at least help me feel not alone.