Retrogirl1940
18-03-13, 13:11
Hello everyone,
I hope you are as well as can be.
Let me introduce myself. My name is Linda and I am 34.
I have been diagnosed by my local mental health team as having Generalised Anxiety Disorder but I am pretty sure I suffer with Pure O aswell but they never diagnosed me with this.
I have suffered from Panic Attacks since I was a little girl (from about the age of 7). I do believe it was Pure O too. :mad:
When i was young I would get obsessed that something bad was going to happen to me, i.e. I watched Casualty and a lady on there had a brain tumor and I was convinced for weeks if not months that I had one. Another time a person had a seizure and for years and years (even to this day) I worry I may just collapse and have a seizure.
At the age of 19 I was put onto Seroxat as I went away on a girly holiday and had 5-6 panic attacks a day.
I have had a couple of relapses since then every time I try to come off the medication.
Mid December time (again when I was trying to wean off of the seroxat)there was a post on Facebook about a guy in our area who had committed suicide. I didn't know him but friends of mine did.
I read this on the train on my way home from work and for some unkinown reason this triggered something and I had a massive panic attack on the train.
In my head I said to myself I suffer from panic attacks and mild depression, what if I get so bad that I try to do that?!?! This has replayed in my head since then with brief moments of respite.
Christmas was ruined. I was a nervous wreck. Constantly crying, frightened to be alone for fear I may dop something to myself, i got signed off work. Couldn't eat properly, felt constantly tired, was frightened to go out alone, was being sick, shaking, breathlessness and felt I was going crazy.
I went to my GP and she increased my dose of seroxat from 20mg to 30mg (I am now up to 40mg). She also referred me to the Crisis team.
They assessed me and determined that I wasn't suicidal and referred me to MIND for CBT therapy. They also assessed me and came to the decision I was no danger to myself or anyone else (even though I was convinced I might be) and put me on the waiting list for therapy.
As well as the thoughts replaying around in my head I may hurt myself (even though I know I will not do this and want to live my life) there has been another news story that has worried me about a mentally ill woman who nearly decapitated a lady in my local area. On Saturday I was reading about it and I started to worry that I might be psychotic and what if I lose my mind one day???
Today, I tried to confront the issue and looked up about the case online (the suicide case) on my local newspaper website. I could feel a panic attack building, read one article about this person and then clicked off.
Now its replaying again.
I have my first CBT session on Wednesday and I know I am stressing about it and I am also overtired at the moment and this doesn't help my anxiety or my OCD.
Actually I am always feeling tired. Does anyone else feel that way?
I am back at work and have been for a number of weeks now which has been a massive help.
Does anyone have any tips or advise on how I can stop this thoughts replaying in my mind. Also, does anyone think this sounds like Pure O?
Sorry for the long post it all started flooding out.
I look forward to hearing from people.
Linda x
I hope you are as well as can be.
Let me introduce myself. My name is Linda and I am 34.
I have been diagnosed by my local mental health team as having Generalised Anxiety Disorder but I am pretty sure I suffer with Pure O aswell but they never diagnosed me with this.
I have suffered from Panic Attacks since I was a little girl (from about the age of 7). I do believe it was Pure O too. :mad:
When i was young I would get obsessed that something bad was going to happen to me, i.e. I watched Casualty and a lady on there had a brain tumor and I was convinced for weeks if not months that I had one. Another time a person had a seizure and for years and years (even to this day) I worry I may just collapse and have a seizure.
At the age of 19 I was put onto Seroxat as I went away on a girly holiday and had 5-6 panic attacks a day.
I have had a couple of relapses since then every time I try to come off the medication.
Mid December time (again when I was trying to wean off of the seroxat)there was a post on Facebook about a guy in our area who had committed suicide. I didn't know him but friends of mine did.
I read this on the train on my way home from work and for some unkinown reason this triggered something and I had a massive panic attack on the train.
In my head I said to myself I suffer from panic attacks and mild depression, what if I get so bad that I try to do that?!?! This has replayed in my head since then with brief moments of respite.
Christmas was ruined. I was a nervous wreck. Constantly crying, frightened to be alone for fear I may dop something to myself, i got signed off work. Couldn't eat properly, felt constantly tired, was frightened to go out alone, was being sick, shaking, breathlessness and felt I was going crazy.
I went to my GP and she increased my dose of seroxat from 20mg to 30mg (I am now up to 40mg). She also referred me to the Crisis team.
They assessed me and determined that I wasn't suicidal and referred me to MIND for CBT therapy. They also assessed me and came to the decision I was no danger to myself or anyone else (even though I was convinced I might be) and put me on the waiting list for therapy.
As well as the thoughts replaying around in my head I may hurt myself (even though I know I will not do this and want to live my life) there has been another news story that has worried me about a mentally ill woman who nearly decapitated a lady in my local area. On Saturday I was reading about it and I started to worry that I might be psychotic and what if I lose my mind one day???
Today, I tried to confront the issue and looked up about the case online (the suicide case) on my local newspaper website. I could feel a panic attack building, read one article about this person and then clicked off.
Now its replaying again.
I have my first CBT session on Wednesday and I know I am stressing about it and I am also overtired at the moment and this doesn't help my anxiety or my OCD.
Actually I am always feeling tired. Does anyone else feel that way?
I am back at work and have been for a number of weeks now which has been a massive help.
Does anyone have any tips or advise on how I can stop this thoughts replaying in my mind. Also, does anyone think this sounds like Pure O?
Sorry for the long post it all started flooding out.
I look forward to hearing from people.
Linda x