Carly Lou
21-03-13, 15:07
Hi Guys.... as you may have noticed im back... back to my anxious self after a whole year of being anxiety free after 3 years of suffering the worse health anxiety/ocd & GAD :weep:
Im still so unconvinced that i am making myself ill... the symptoms i feel and how they all minic cancers of various types... one stops then a new symptom arrives and then i believe its a different cancer or.... the cancer i believed i had has just spread... im sure you all know this routine very well...
well after a few weeks of suffering from flu like symptoms ( run down apparently from anxiety and stress ) and headaches, not to mention convincing myself i found a lump in my neck... to then add i have started a early period ( stress related again) altho cervical cancer springs to mind... im finally waiting to hear back from the doctor so i can babble on about how i feel and is this really anxiety... im really struggling with the belief that its causing me to feel so unwell.... my senses are so hightened just the slighest twinge sets me off into a overload of panic.
how am i causing my headaches
how have i caused a early period
why am i feeling sick
the list goes on and on with symptoms that i just cant accept are just anxiety... i think deep down i know they are.... but im sturggling to understand how powerful the mind is...
no more googling for me.... i even googled the rarest cancer yesterday and decided i have 3 symptoms of that... its absoloutly daft and my mind really is my own worse enemy... i try to diet and be healthy and then start thinking what if i die tomorrow.... i would have eaten boring food, so i then eat something rubbish and then cry...
I just want to thank everyone since i have been back on nmp for your help and support... it does honestly make me feel much better... i just wish i could wake up one day with a spring in my step like i used too, to feel happy and not wait for another symptom to start that will terrify me...
i am awaiting a call from the doctor so we can discuss this and see if i really need any tests for peace of mind...
Thank you everyone
Carls x
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Im still so unconvinced that i am making myself ill... the symptoms i feel and how they all minic cancers of various types... one stops then a new symptom arrives and then i believe its a different cancer or.... the cancer i believed i had has just spread... im sure you all know this routine very well...
well after a few weeks of suffering from flu like symptoms ( run down apparently from anxiety and stress ) and headaches, not to mention convincing myself i found a lump in my neck... to then add i have started a early period ( stress related again) altho cervical cancer springs to mind... im finally waiting to hear back from the doctor so i can babble on about how i feel and is this really anxiety... im really struggling with the belief that its causing me to feel so unwell.... my senses are so hightened just the slighest twinge sets me off into a overload of panic.
how am i causing my headaches
how have i caused a early period
why am i feeling sick
the list goes on and on with symptoms that i just cant accept are just anxiety... i think deep down i know they are.... but im sturggling to understand how powerful the mind is...
no more googling for me.... i even googled the rarest cancer yesterday and decided i have 3 symptoms of that... its absoloutly daft and my mind really is my own worse enemy... i try to diet and be healthy and then start thinking what if i die tomorrow.... i would have eaten boring food, so i then eat something rubbish and then cry...
I just want to thank everyone since i have been back on nmp for your help and support... it does honestly make me feel much better... i just wish i could wake up one day with a spring in my step like i used too, to feel happy and not wait for another symptom to start that will terrify me...
i am awaiting a call from the doctor so we can discuss this and see if i really need any tests for peace of mind...
Thank you everyone
Carls x
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