Mogwog
28-03-13, 15:49
I don't even know where to start. I have had health anxiety and depression since my son was born with disabilities. We nearly lost him. I have also had 2 very traumatic miscarriages since my son which resulted in hopital stays.I have been absolutely fine on antidepressants - no problems but have come off them because we want another baby........ But I have now developed a fear of germs mainly toxoplasmosis as I know it can stay in your system for months after you catch it and you can pass it onto a baby if you get pregnant within that time. I am a mess, I think it's everywhere. My son is going away in a month to a farm for a school camp and I'm convinced his clothes and camping equipment will be covered in it and ill catch it when I wash them. I'm scared to eat, touch things etc - it's insane
It all comes down to the fact that I am scared out of my wits that I may lose anther baby or it will have birth defects again ( please don't think I don't love my son just the way he is because I do - he means the world to me)
My dr has said I can't take antidepressants due to previous history of having a child with birth defects but I am so so low - I want to runaway ( i know that wouldn't solve a thing)
My dr has referred me for counselling but the wait is 12 weeks.
I have let everyone down and am so broken I just don't know what to do anymore
It all comes down to the fact that I am scared out of my wits that I may lose anther baby or it will have birth defects again ( please don't think I don't love my son just the way he is because I do - he means the world to me)
My dr has said I can't take antidepressants due to previous history of having a child with birth defects but I am so so low - I want to runaway ( i know that wouldn't solve a thing)
My dr has referred me for counselling but the wait is 12 weeks.
I have let everyone down and am so broken I just don't know what to do anymore