jso123
01-04-13, 12:33
Hi Everyone,
I went on a night out and got really drunk. I think everyone knows where this is going. Basically ended up sleeping with a girl, used a condom at first and then it came off and continued. I am normally really good at staying protected during sex as I know this anxiety issues I have take over my life the next day.
So here I am, had an unprotected roll with a bit of a loose woman and devastated anxiety-wise regarding STD's and HIV. I really hate being this way. I mean I know its good as its a stark reminder to be safe, but I literally sentence myself to shame, worthlessness, self hate and death thoughts. (Not that I am suicidal but just conveying the severity of the feelings).
Anyway I am going to get the tests done asap. I have a few questions. I know 3 months is the limit for HIV test but by getting one done right away, there is still some reassurance I can take from that right? Then look to get another in 3 months?
Secondly if someone can give some reassurance on the likeliness of the worst case scenario happening off a 1 time event, then that would ease my mind.
I have made a decision to cut alcohol out of my life. Not just because of this incident but how it makes me feel the next day generally. So some good has come from this situation...I am just so scared, sad and alone right now.
I went on a night out and got really drunk. I think everyone knows where this is going. Basically ended up sleeping with a girl, used a condom at first and then it came off and continued. I am normally really good at staying protected during sex as I know this anxiety issues I have take over my life the next day.
So here I am, had an unprotected roll with a bit of a loose woman and devastated anxiety-wise regarding STD's and HIV. I really hate being this way. I mean I know its good as its a stark reminder to be safe, but I literally sentence myself to shame, worthlessness, self hate and death thoughts. (Not that I am suicidal but just conveying the severity of the feelings).
Anyway I am going to get the tests done asap. I have a few questions. I know 3 months is the limit for HIV test but by getting one done right away, there is still some reassurance I can take from that right? Then look to get another in 3 months?
Secondly if someone can give some reassurance on the likeliness of the worst case scenario happening off a 1 time event, then that would ease my mind.
I have made a decision to cut alcohol out of my life. Not just because of this incident but how it makes me feel the next day generally. So some good has come from this situation...I am just so scared, sad and alone right now.