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roseandwill

01-04-13, 13:05

Hi, my name is Ali I'm 38 and mother of two. My youngest is 4months and my eldest 14. Over the last few months my fear od death has got significantly worse, it makes panic escalates to the point of near explosion in my mind, this is followed by a complete feeling of sadness and pointlessness of life. I appreciate this is hard to comprehend but my mind is now locked in on it. I really cannot cope. Has anyone else out there felt like this....I need to get back what I once had for the sake of ny gorgeous children. Many thanks for reading...

Tufty

01-04-13, 14:45

Hello and :welcome: Ali,

I think I can comprehend how you feel, although I do not have a fear of death I have other anxieties and this has lead to panic, and feelings of sadness and feeling life is pointless. It's good to hear that you want to get back to your normal self as that drive is the starting point to getting better. Have you tried and therapies?
Take care
Sam

roseandwill

01-04-13, 15:00

Hi Tufty, thanks for your response and kind words. I have been to the doctors who has referred me for some therapy, she seems to think i could have ptsd triggered from my last birth. Fingers crossed this will be starting this week. It's the most hideous feeling I have ever experienced so I'm hoping we can get to the bottom of it...I feel very trapped.
Thanks again for your support.:)

maro111

01-04-13, 15:06

Hi Roseandwill. Im very sorry to hear of your fears. I havent had a fear of death mabye so cant be of much help but I wanted to wish you the very best for the therapy. I really hope it helps you overcome it quickly!!
Mark

roseandwill

01-04-13, 15:10

Thanks Maro111, it's very kind of you to take the time to write...I'm hoping with all my might there will be some light at the end of the therapy tunnel too.:)

Mudge of legend

01-04-13, 16:00

Hi Roseandwill
I am 48 and the mother of two wonderful daughters 22 and 19. they both have their problems (one is actually on here too) and I have my anxieties too. I used to be so scared of dying and death I would actually feel sick.. it also happened after the birth of my first daughter ... many, many, many moons ago *sigh* lol
I think it was triggered by a new birth.. it brings your own mortality into question etc and also the feeling of responsibility for a new life too.. all adds up to a big 'bang' in your head. So i know where you are coming from.
I found that I was working with a woman who was really into ermm... (please dont stop reading) spirituality and guides, spirits, etc and she was pyschic. Now then... still here??... good.She was the one who started talking to me about multiple lives and death not being the end etc.
reading and discovering this has helped me ENORMOUSLY over the years..and has made my anxiety, of this topic at least, diminish.... i dont mean to 'bible bash' you.. I aren't even religious... i know what you feel anxious about.... and now I'm rambling.... if you want me to talk or explain more i will..... *hugs*

roseandwill

01-04-13, 16:14

Hi Mudge, that's exactly how it feels in my head. I would be very interested in finding out how you managed to diminish these thoughts. Right now everything i look at seems to upset me and lead me on the thought path of dying... I have experienced anxiety in the past and managed to get rid of it successfully, so I can empathise with you. This is a completely different feeling. If I can be of any help to you or your daughter please ask.
Thanks for your help.

Mudge of legend

01-04-13, 20:08

Hi again

my friend basically told me about multiple lives and reincarnation etc etc and mentioned two or three books that i have read and absorbed as it were.... they did help. daft as it sounds by telling me what happens.. it calmed me in that it doesn't all go black etc. i will tell you the book name and then you can read if you like. its called Journey of souls by Michael Newton.There is also Destiny of Souls which carries on from it. i honestly found there was no point in pretending that death doesn't exist - of course it does... but that its okay. i took the fear out of it. there is still sadness i suppose but that is part of it. the main thing is to lose the fear of it, accept it and then make what you can of your life. that includes being there for young ones and or yourself. excuse the way i am putting it if it disturbs you - i do not mean to. it must be the way my mind is working today lol. try and lose the fear and remember the love. its hard but i do it right from time to time.
anxiety doesnt change death it just robs you of the love in the day
take care. PM me if you like - i dont mind x

ritaroo81

02-04-13, 13:50

Hi Ali, Im a mom of two girls 4 and 9mths and can completely sympathise with you, i am petrified of dying - i started having panic and anxiety about 3 months ago after a run of bad luck and a couple of deaths of people close to my family. I found talking and im seeing a holistic healer that specialises in grief concilling I hope that you can find a way of dealing with your anxiety. I just posted my life with anxiety story in the introduce me bit as you have, if you read it and maybe we on a similar trip. :hugs:
I hope that your councilling or treatment helps, someone suggested to me that i might have a bit of pnds that it was delayed maybe?? i not sure, i just know that i scared of losing my bubbas. take care. xx

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Hi again

my friend basically told me about multiple lives and reincarnation etc etc and mentioned two or three books that i have read and absorbed as it were.... they did help. daft as it sounds by telling me what happens.. it calmed me in that it doesn't all go black etc. i will tell you the book name and then you can read if you like. its called Journey of souls by Michael Newton.There is also Destiny of Souls which carries on from it. i honestly found there was no point in pretending that death doesn't exist - of course it does... but that its okay. i took the fear out of it. there is still sadness i suppose but that is part of it. the main thing is to lose the fear of it, accept it and then make what you can of your life. that includes being there for young ones and or yourself. excuse the way i am putting it if it disturbs you - i do not mean to. it must be the way my mind is working today lol. try and lose the fear and remember the love. its hard but i do it right from time to time.
anxiety doesnt change death it just robs you of the love in the day
take care. PM me if you like - i dont mind x

Mudge those books sound like a book i need to read also, i shall be googling to get a copy thanks for heads up. Ria.xx

roseandwill

02-04-13, 15:25

ritaroo81

02-04-13, 17:02

Mudge, thanks for the book list I will give them a go. I hope I can find some of the peace you have.:)
Ria, thanks for your post, it's a tiny comfort knowing you're not alone. I read your introduction page, it looks like we do have quite a few similar experiences, including the mole! How are you feeling now, did your doctor recommend cbt to you? Mine has referred me and thinks i may have post traumatic stress disorder due to a horrendous birth experience of my last child. This is all well and good but in the mean time my head and my stomach are doing somersaults! xx

Its ok. I really do fine it a comfort and knowing that you arent alone makes me feel a lot less crazy, and that im not being stupid, which is how i first felt.
Wow.. That is spooky!! mole and all... My Dr hasnt even mentioned CBT, you are the second person today off the forums that has told me, i didnt even know what it was. I have been forwarded a link of a lady i was talikng to earlier and shall be googling till my fingers fall off tonight to investigate what its all about.
O hun that sounds awful, birthing can be so traumatic at times so can only imagine how you are feeling.. Life would be so much easier if we were fitted with on/off switches for feeling sometimes. Hopefully your referal wont take to long to come through.. i shall wait and see, ill be watching with baited breath to see if you think it works.
Im feeling ok, in the day its ok as i keep myself occupied with the girls. its the quiet nights that get my mind going, ive not had an attack for a few weeks now, ive been using the breathing techniques that Cathy has told me about and when i can feel the panic setting in, ive taken myself upstairs lay on the bed and tried to breathe through it. Its helping, my heart and mind ends up racing for a couple of hours but its getting better. Its the after feelings, for instancetoday i could see stars for a few hours after waking and my heart feels heavy and throat feels like ive got a blockage at the bottom, which i havent cause im drinking and eating fine... O well.. we'll get there. xx

roseandwill

02-04-13, 18:57

Thanks Ria, I'm glad you're feeling okay at least for part of the day, at the moment I'm struggling to put a lid on it and gain any perspective..An on off switch would be so lovely right now..It's good you have some coping mechanisms too. A good 15 years back I suffered with anxiety and experienced the throat lump feeling, this joy was accompanied with feeling like I couldn't breathe, I did however shake this, one day I took my mind of it for long enough and it just went, so there's defo hope for you with those....I'll keep you in the loop with regards to cbt. If e don't speak before good luck with the mole appt.xx

ritaroo81

02-04-13, 19:21

O hun, fingers crossed it can and will help you. Im hoping that if i can ignore it that it will subside with time. I look forward to hearing about the cbt and thanks it means alot, i shall let you know friday how i get on. :hugs: xx

Mudge of legend

02-04-13, 20:10

I'm glad i could have been some help to you all.. I found the books enlightening. Michael Newton is a hypnotherapist that stumbled upon a way for his clients to remember a life
'between' lives i.e. when we are souls back 'upstairs' ... it so good to read. It settled me no end.